[gavin0]

i just need to get this out i dont care about the quality of this thread and i dont care if people say "tldr" or some bs like that. do as u please.
All i want in life is to just experience any type of connection with a girl.
(I'm the first person in my grade to have a license) anytime i girl even interacts with me it is only if they need or want a ride somewhere. i have SFS and my self esteem is so low and it is gut wrenching to know that no matter what i do i will be forever nerfed by my sfs. my phone is so fucking dry i have no girls i talk to, the last time i had a gf was January 2023, and i cant even tell u the last time i would even say i was in a talking stage. i want a minimum of 5 different surgeries/procedures to even have a chance at experiencing life. I do not know what i want to do in life, I'm 16 i hate myself i hate my body so much, I'm barely 5'7 125lbs 20bmi. All my friends brutally fucking height mog me.
i have no guidance no role models no one to talk to nothing. i am about to order 3 different drugs (pregabalin, baclofen, and mematine, maybe cialis because why not.)
oh yeah also i have gyno so i dont even remember the last time i took my shirt off around anyone.
I have been smoking weed the past 3 months everyday before school alone in my car crying to myself having to fucking try and get through the day. My friends kicked me out of the friend group a couple months ago just before summer break, so i spent my summer alone. I did not hangout with 1 person my age for 6 months. I got my license august 28th and just so happened to be when school started again. im friends with them again now but i feel like its only for rides and at their convivence. im in therapy but thats only because i have adhd so i guess my mom thinks i need it, thats only once a month and every session is useless, i can not talk about my feeling especially with a therapist who is only fucking treating you non even human.

No one is going to save me.
I can't save myself.
I'm going to be fucking stuck at 5'7
I want to nutrition max but i nor my parents can afford for me to be buying meat and eggs and all this good food that ur supposed to eat. i ate mcdonalds twice in the last 24 hours because they just get it for me.

I feel so bad for my parents i wish i could make them proud but i dont do anything except go to the gym, but even that im fucking weak at.

I wish i could just fucking die and not not have anyone grieve over me. I know no one would except my family anyways. My grandparents are getting old my parents are getting old i think its over for me when they pass.
I am so fucking mentally weak no one will ever understand.
I wish i could be happy i wish i could not care about looks or anything. I want to be normal i dont want my parents to see me like this.

i dont know how long i can do this for.

 

[Judenbänker]

Came to say DNR

 

[VelocityAnt¹]

Came to say DR

 

[Judenbänker]

Came to say DR

Wholesome end

I did read as well ngl


for OP either become a twink (become as in embrace it) or rope either way hop on ai to get rid of that gyno

 

[VelocityAnt¹]

Wholesome end

I did read as well ngl


for OP either become a twink or rope either way hop on ai to get rid of that gyno

He prolly lives in the US so that's why he gets McDonald's on the regular

 

[gavin0]

He prolly lives in the US so that's why he gets McDonald's on the regular

i do live in the us, i dont eat on the regular, well depends 1-2 times a week. i want to eat good food i just dont know how

 

[Judenbänker]

He prolly lives in the US so that's why he gets McDonald's on the regular

seems so


over for merimutts life starts at being a eurochad

 

[VelocityAnt¹]

Cut off them niggas or change school if you're too high inhib (which is the best way)

 

[Michael b]

Dnr

 

[gavin0]

Cut off them niggas or change school if you're too high inhib (which is the best way)

yeah lol, im gonna stay with them because i have no other options and its a popularity max since ig they are popular.
thats why im getting pregab and baclofen

 

[VelocityAnt¹]

yeah lol, im gonna stay with them because i have no other options and its a popularity max since ig they are popular.
thats why im getting pregab and baclofen

You're living like a bitch ass nigga ghost, they don't like u, they don't enjoy your presence and it's the same for you.
(if not why do u even use pregab lmao if you're good with them, u won't need it).
Maybe you could have some meaningful relationship with some of them (like max 2).
The best thing out of it would be to slay some girl with the popularity, still a beta move tho.
Gl on the larp

 

[Z1gler7]

i just need to get this out i dont care about the quality of this thread and i dont care if people say "tldr" or some bs like that. do as u please.
All i want in life is to just experience any type of connection with a girl.
(I'm the first person in my grade to have a license) anytime i girl even interacts with me it is only if they need or want a ride somewhere. i have SFS and my self esteem is so low and it is gut wrenching to know that no matter what i do i will be forever nerfed by my sfs. my phone is so fucking dry i have no girls i talk to, the last time i had a gf was January 2023, and i cant even tell u the last time i would even say i was in a talking stage. i want a minimum of 5 different surgeries/procedures to even have a chance at experiencing life. I do not know what i want to do in life, I'm 16 i hate myself i hate my body so much, I'm barely 5'7 125lbs 20bmi. All my friends brutally fucking height mog me.
i have no guidance no role models no one to talk to nothing. i am about to order 3 different drugs (pregabalin, baclofen, and mematine, maybe cialis because why not.)
oh yeah also i have gyno so i dont even remember the last time i took my shirt off around anyone.
I have been smoking weed the past 3 months everyday before school alone in my car crying to myself having to fucking try and get through the day. My friends kicked me out of the friend group a couple months ago just before summer break, so i spent my summer alone. I did not hangout with 1 person my age for 6 months. I got my license august 28th and just so happened to be when school started again. im friends with them again now but i feel like its only for rides and at their convivence. im in therapy but thats only because i have adhd so i guess my mom thinks i need it, thats only once a month and every session is useless, i can not talk about my feeling especially with a therapist who is only fucking treating you non even human.

No one is going to save me.
I can't save myself.
I'm going to be fucking stuck at 5'7
I want to nutrition max but i nor my parents can afford for me to be buying meat and eggs and all this good food that ur supposed to eat. i ate mcdonalds twice in the last 24 hours because they just get it for me.

I feel so bad for my parents i wish i could make them proud but i dont do anything except go to the gym, but even that im fucking weak at.

I wish i could just fucking die and not not have anyone grieve over me. I know no one would except my family anyways. My grandparents are getting old my parents are getting old i think its over for me when they pass.
I am so fucking mentally weak no one will ever understand.
I wish i could be happy i wish i could not care about looks or anything. I want to be normal i dont want my parents to see me like this.

i dont know how long i can do this for.

I'm sorry man

 

[eccentric]

i just need to get this out i dont care about the quality of this thread and i dont care if people say "tldr" or some bs like that. do as u please.
All i want in life is to just experience any type of connection with a girl.
(I'm the first person in my grade to have a license) anytime i girl even interacts with me it is only if they need or want a ride somewhere. i have SFS and my self esteem is so low and it is gut wrenching to know that no matter what i do i will be forever nerfed by my sfs. my phone is so fucking dry i have no girls i talk to, the last time i had a gf was January 2023, and i cant even tell u the last time i would even say i was in a talking stage. i want a minimum of 5 different surgeries/procedures to even have a chance at experiencing life. I do not know what i want to do in life, I'm 16 i hate myself i hate my body so much, I'm barely 5'7 125lbs 20bmi. All my friends brutally fucking height mog me.
i have no guidance no role models no one to talk to nothing. i am about to order 3 different drugs (pregabalin, baclofen, and mematine, maybe cialis because why not.)
oh yeah also i have gyno so i dont even remember the last time i took my shirt off around anyone.
I have been smoking weed the past 3 months everyday before school alone in my car crying to myself having to fucking try and get through the day. My friends kicked me out of the friend group a couple months ago just before summer break, so i spent my summer alone. I did not hangout with 1 person my age for 6 months. I got my license august 28th and just so happened to be when school started again. im friends with them again now but i feel like its only for rides and at their convivence. im in therapy but thats only because i have adhd so i guess my mom thinks i need it, thats only once a month and every session is useless, i can not talk about my feeling especially with a therapist who is only fucking treating you non even human.

No one is going to save me.
I can't save myself.
I'm going to be fucking stuck at 5'7
I want to nutrition max but i nor my parents can afford for me to be buying meat and eggs and all this good food that ur supposed to eat. i ate mcdonalds twice in the last 24 hours because they just get it for me.

I feel so bad for my parents i wish i could make them proud but i dont do anything except go to the gym, but even that im fucking weak at.

I wish i could just fucking die and not not have anyone grieve over me. I know no one would except my family anyways. My grandparents are getting old my parents are getting old i think its over for me when they pass.
I am so fucking mentally weak no one will ever understand.
I wish i could be happy i wish i could not care about looks or anything. I want to be normal i dont want my parents to see me like this.

i dont know how long i can do this for.

nigga cut of your fucking friends

 

[gavin0]

You're living like a bitch ass nigga ghost, they don't like u, they don't enjoy your presence and it's the same for you.
(if not why do u even use pregab lmao if you're good with them, u won't need it).
Maybe you could have some meaningful relationship with some of them (like max 2).
The best thing out of it would be to slay some girl with the popularity, still a beta move tho.
Gl on the larp

but we do tho, sometimes. its hard to explain.
i want pregab so i can talk to girls like a normal person.

they dont know what i think. Whenever they are like "shut the fuck up" or call me a bitch or anything for just talking, i can't do anything, every single one of my friends could beat my ass and are all taller than me.

 

[gavin0]

nigga cut of your fucking friends

and do what? sit through school alone? walk by them in my classes? sit alone at lunch? hangout with no one and have nothing?
i would be even more of a fucking loser

 

[eccentric]

and do what? sit through school alone? walk by them in my classes? sit alone at lunch? hangout with no one and have nothing?
i would be even more of a fucking loser

yes its better then having fake friends,if i were you search a hobby like mma and instead of eating mcdonalds eat real food,how tall are your parents?Because when i was 16 i was 5‘7 too now im 5‘10 wich is barely acceptable but still better.Maybe you find friends at a mma gym too

 

[VelocityAnt¹]

but we do tho, sometimes. its hard to explain.
i want pregab so i can talk to girls like a normal person.

Only thing good about this, you'll still feel out of place. You will feel like a bitch ass nigga, when you're with them, talking with her, slaying her, even when you'll type "I SLAYED FOR THE 1ST TIME" on .gg.
Either way get the girl and ghost their ahh

they dont know what i think. Whenever they are like "shut the fuck up" or call me a bitch or anything for just talking, i can't do anything, every single one of my friends could beat my ass and are all taller than me.

Why are you even calling them friends PTL JFL.

If you want to be their bitch then be it, but don't complain about shi.
Go do some PEDs or learn how to fight. Either way they'll stop being friends with u after you beat them (prepare a gun also).

 

[gavin0]

Only thing good about this, you'll still feel out of place. You will feel like a bitch ass nigga, when you're with them, talking with her, slaying her, even when you'll type "I SLAYED FOR THE 1ST TIME" on .gg.
Either way get the girl and ghost their ahh

Why are you even calling them friends PTL JFL.

If you want to be their bitch then be it, but don't complain about shi.
Go do some PEDs or learn how to fight. Either way they'll stop being friends with u after you beat them (prepare a gun also).

youre right. I need to stop being a fucking little bitch cuck to them. God what am i doing just letting them do whatever they want it makes me so pissed.

 

[gavin0]

yes its better then having fake friends,if i were you search a hobby like mma and instead of eating mcdonalds eat real food,how tall are your parents?Because when i was 16 i was 5‘7 too now im 5‘10 wich is barely acceptable but still better.Maybe you find friends at a mma gym too

mom is 5'5, my blood dad was 6'2.
i turn 17 February 25th. I am a late bloomer also so thats the only reason i have hope
How do i eat good though? If i were to eat like good that would cost my mom too much $$ at the store. and she doesnt have a job currently.
Of course goyslop is cheap and real food isnt

 

[eccentric]

mom is 5'5, my blood dad was 6'2.
i turn 17 February 25th. I am a late bloomer also so thats the only reason i have hope

alright nigger trust me like im not even kidding you can make big big changes do them NOW

 

[VelocityAnt¹]

youre right. I need to stop being a fucking little bitch cuck to them. God what am i doing just letting them do whatever they want it makes me so pissed.

Lmao I was about to insult u.

 

[gaylarpmaster]

um i did read but yuo wanna trade heights like deadass idk how but

 

[gavin0]

alright nigger trust me like im not even kidding you can make big big changes do them NOW

I will.

 

[gavin0]

View attachment 18887
Lmao I was about to insult u.

lmao. not like thats anything i havent heard before
actually i havent

 

[chromium]

i just need to get this out i dont care about the quality of this thread and i dont care if people say "tldr" or some bs like that. do as u please.
All i want in life is to just experience any type of connection with a girl.
(I'm the first person in my grade to have a license) anytime i girl even interacts with me it is only if they need or want a ride somewhere. i have SFS and my self esteem is so low and it is gut wrenching to know that no matter what i do i will be forever nerfed by my sfs. my phone is so fucking dry i have no girls i talk to, the last time i had a gf was January 2023, and i cant even tell u the last time i would even say i was in a talking stage. i want a minimum of 5 different surgeries/procedures to even have a chance at experiencing life. I do not know what i want to do in life, I'm 16 i hate myself i hate my body so much, I'm barely 5'7 125lbs 20bmi. All my friends brutally fucking height mog me.
i have no guidance no role models no one to talk to nothing. i am about to order 3 different drugs (pregabalin, baclofen, and mematine, maybe cialis because why not.)
oh yeah also i have gyno so i dont even remember the last time i took my shirt off around anyone.
I have been smoking weed the past 3 months everyday before school alone in my car crying to myself having to fucking try and get through the day. My friends kicked me out of the friend group a couple months ago just before summer break, so i spent my summer alone. I did not hangout with 1 person my age for 6 months. I got my license august 28th and just so happened to be when school started again. im friends with them again now but i feel like its only for rides and at their convivence. im in therapy but thats only because i have adhd so i guess my mom thinks i need it, thats only once a month and every session is useless, i can not talk about my feeling especially with a therapist who is only fucking treating you non even human.

No one is going to save me.
I can't save myself.
I'm going to be fucking stuck at 5'7
I want to nutrition max but i nor my parents can afford for me to be buying meat and eggs and all this good food that ur supposed to eat. i ate mcdonalds twice in the last 24 hours because they just get it for me.

I feel so bad for my parents i wish i could make them proud but i dont do anything except go to the gym, but even that im fucking weak at.

I wish i could just fucking die and not not have anyone grieve over me. I know no one would except my family anyways. My grandparents are getting old my parents are getting old i think its over for me when they pass.
I am so fucking mentally weak no one will ever understand.
I wish i could be happy i wish i could not care about looks or anything. I want to be normal i dont want my parents to see me like this.

i dont know how long i can do this for.

dnr