Aiphok
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This is just a story time for anyone who is bored
At the end of my sophomore year of high school, I fell HARD for this girl that I was close with. Fast forward a couple months of constant talking and things ended terribly. Let's call her girl A. I wanted to get into girl A's life so bad that I started communicating with her best friend at the time. Essentially I was using her best friend to reconnect with girl A (which didn't end up working). Over time I started developing feelings for her best friend. We became EXTREMELY close the summer going into my senior year, but I was too much of a pussy to say how I felt. The entirety of senior year we were just really close friends that would flirt unintentionally here and there. However, some high school drama happened in March of my senior year with her and we cut all contact. It's also a good time to mention that girl B left her previous best friend (girl A) because of me (indirectly). I happened to be extremely close with girl B's friend for a year and a half (let's call her girl C) and girl C acc liked me without me knowing. Girl C ended up telling me she liked me and I ended up getting w her quite a few times to fill the void of losing girl B (even though we were js friends). I ended up screwing girl C over by slowly cutting contact since I did not like her and I did not want to get her even more attached than she already was (at the end of the day, girl B was the girl I wanted).
Going into freshman year of college last year I still was yearning for girl B. We started communicating a little bit here and there again although it was constantly on and off. However, we hung out a few times in college one on one as friends to sort of build back up. Now I am skipping to February of this year. I was out at my college bar and I drunk texted her when I got home. Pathetic ik (although sort of happy I did). She was being extremely dry as she understood I was extremely gone. She asked when she could return my sweater she had borrowed and since I was annoyed she was dry, I js told her to keep it cause idc abt it, and she responded with how it is a nice sweater and that isn't right. I then responded "give it to my sister" to signify that I didn't gaf abt her anymore (although deep down I did). She responded with "wtvr you prefer" which I simply reacted with a thumbs up.
A few days go by and she texts me saying how she knows idc abt the stupid sweater and that she has been knowing, and that it has been on her mind. We decided to meet up one night. As I was walking to her apartment, her friend (NOT girl C) told me that she realized that she prob likes me (I say prob because she has avoidant attachment personality). We talked on a bench from 8pm to 11pm just abt feelings (but I was so high inhib that I didn't tell her I liked her, I sort of just agreed when she brought it up). She also cried mid convo and said that this is hard to talk abt. After the 3 hour talk, we went to our local Wawa to get a bite of food and walk around. The hangout lasted from 8pm to 1:30am.
She told her best friend that she is extremely confused with herself and that she also didn't like how I was such a baby and didn't tell her how I felt. I texted her that I didn't get to say everything I wanted to say since I was being a retard, and we made new plans to talk. That whole hangout we were just walking and talking. We were both saying how we are both confusing people (basically saying maybe rn isn't the best time for either of us). We said we would be friends for the time being.
However, we haven't really spoke since then. She sent me a happy birthday paragraph in April, but that's abt it. My plan is to just be cold for a while and then one random day next semester ask her to talk in person and drop the bomb that I still like her (sort of like how Jim told Pam he loves her, although I have never watched the Office, I just have seen that clip).
Are yearners earner or am I cooked? (btw I am in Greece rn and I WILL be having fun with whoever I want since I'm not cuffed)
At the end of my sophomore year of high school, I fell HARD for this girl that I was close with. Fast forward a couple months of constant talking and things ended terribly. Let's call her girl A. I wanted to get into girl A's life so bad that I started communicating with her best friend at the time. Essentially I was using her best friend to reconnect with girl A (which didn't end up working). Over time I started developing feelings for her best friend. We became EXTREMELY close the summer going into my senior year, but I was too much of a pussy to say how I felt. The entirety of senior year we were just really close friends that would flirt unintentionally here and there. However, some high school drama happened in March of my senior year with her and we cut all contact. It's also a good time to mention that girl B left her previous best friend (girl A) because of me (indirectly). I happened to be extremely close with girl B's friend for a year and a half (let's call her girl C) and girl C acc liked me without me knowing. Girl C ended up telling me she liked me and I ended up getting w her quite a few times to fill the void of losing girl B (even though we were js friends). I ended up screwing girl C over by slowly cutting contact since I did not like her and I did not want to get her even more attached than she already was (at the end of the day, girl B was the girl I wanted).
Going into freshman year of college last year I still was yearning for girl B. We started communicating a little bit here and there again although it was constantly on and off. However, we hung out a few times in college one on one as friends to sort of build back up. Now I am skipping to February of this year. I was out at my college bar and I drunk texted her when I got home. Pathetic ik (although sort of happy I did). She was being extremely dry as she understood I was extremely gone. She asked when she could return my sweater she had borrowed and since I was annoyed she was dry, I js told her to keep it cause idc abt it, and she responded with how it is a nice sweater and that isn't right. I then responded "give it to my sister" to signify that I didn't gaf abt her anymore (although deep down I did). She responded with "wtvr you prefer" which I simply reacted with a thumbs up.
A few days go by and she texts me saying how she knows idc abt the stupid sweater and that she has been knowing, and that it has been on her mind. We decided to meet up one night. As I was walking to her apartment, her friend (NOT girl C) told me that she realized that she prob likes me (I say prob because she has avoidant attachment personality). We talked on a bench from 8pm to 11pm just abt feelings (but I was so high inhib that I didn't tell her I liked her, I sort of just agreed when she brought it up). She also cried mid convo and said that this is hard to talk abt. After the 3 hour talk, we went to our local Wawa to get a bite of food and walk around. The hangout lasted from 8pm to 1:30am.
She told her best friend that she is extremely confused with herself and that she also didn't like how I was such a baby and didn't tell her how I felt. I texted her that I didn't get to say everything I wanted to say since I was being a retard, and we made new plans to talk. That whole hangout we were just walking and talking. We were both saying how we are both confusing people (basically saying maybe rn isn't the best time for either of us). We said we would be friends for the time being.
However, we haven't really spoke since then. She sent me a happy birthday paragraph in April, but that's abt it. My plan is to just be cold for a while and then one random day next semester ask her to talk in person and drop the bomb that I still like her (sort of like how Jim told Pam he loves her, although I have never watched the Office, I just have seen that clip).
Are yearners earner or am I cooked? (btw I am in Greece rn and I WILL be having fun with whoever I want since I'm not cuffed)
