Mtn_hell
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Omg this cant go on. This one girl switched up hwavy and she was a really good freind of mine. Not just that everybody in my life treated me unjustly and its lead to me having 2 options. Ill explain more below mainly about my freind and ill have some miscallaneous examples down below.
Im prolly missing shit out but here are the basics. I know this is a long read but please read it. Tysm for everuthing u guys helped alot and will continue to help me.
Much love mtn_hell,
Reach for the stars
At the start of college there was this trio which seemed very cool. They had sick humor (similar to mine) and they js overall seemed great. One day i had a project with them and i had a blast. My best descriptions for them are here.
First we have P. He is 5"6 he has glasses and a lisp. His back is slightly hunched and he loves videogames. Then theres W. Hes EXTRENELY FUCKING TALL. Like 6"4 which here is massive. He has nice blue eyes dyed blonde hair a sick fucking dress sense and a nice bubbly personality. Nice person to be around. Those both are lltns. Then we have T. Shes decent height very pretty and a good dress sense. Shes mtb and rocks a clean makeuo style. Now u have that invisioned theyre all really funny great people. At the start we all got along well we would hang out yada yada. Sometimes me and T would hang out by ourselves and study or study as a group. However she started to stalk my reposts and my followers and saw my old reposts about ABG'S(asian girls) after being honest abt it she forgot and we used to talk until 2AM. Keep that in mind. She then added me on her alt acc and we talked ALOT. Even when i went to my cousins house we still sent tik toks and had long talks about stuff. Then her freinds started shipping us which i didnt like and slipped up a little. I didnt think much of it but then we stopped talking until 2 because her parents started sending her up early. We still trolled together and what not.
First we have P. He is 5"6 he has glasses and a lisp. His back is slightly hunched and he loves videogames. Then theres W. Hes EXTRENELY FUCKING TALL. Like 6"4 which here is massive. He has nice blue eyes dyed blonde hair a sick fucking dress sense and a nice bubbly personality. Nice person to be around. Those both are lltns. Then we have T. Shes decent height very pretty and a good dress sense. Shes mtb and rocks a clean makeuo style. Now u have that invisioned theyre all really funny great people. At the start we all got along well we would hang out yada yada. Sometimes me and T would hang out by ourselves and study or study as a group. However she started to stalk my reposts and my followers and saw my old reposts about ABG'S(asian girls) after being honest abt it she forgot and we used to talk until 2AM. Keep that in mind. She then added me on her alt acc and we talked ALOT. Even when i went to my cousins house we still sent tik toks and had long talks about stuff. Then her freinds started shipping us which i didnt like and slipped up a little. I didnt think much of it but then we stopped talking until 2 because her parents started sending her up early. We still trolled together and what not.
One fateful monday God decided that he wanted me to suffer. I was scrolling on tiktok eating chicken tenders when the group all sit down. Mustve been bored out of her mind but T steals my phone and goes through my shit. Shes about the same strength of me and was able to manoever herself so i couldnt get my phone. Anyways she went through all my tik tok folders of private shit mainly my silent reposts and my goat videos. My silent reposts she found out about before seeing it brefily before i brushed it off. She saw all my messages asw. My silent reposts / goat vids mainly had rira edits ER edits and my shitty mental health. My messages revealed texts that i liked her. I initially spoke to them seeking freindship but slowly got feelings for her. U cant control feelings really and i mainly caught them due to her unique looks and fresh personality. They confronted me and once again i told the truth. The thing that hurt the most is while going through it the main people T and W which are very close btw. (W has a girlfreind and is very loyal). They T would show a video to W and they would howl out laughing. In the lift T told me "dood dont worry about it it was all a joke n sheet we arent judging you." I js said ok as i stared at my feet. I felt the heaviness of their stares but couldnt lift my head due to the shame. I sat in class while they treid talking to me. I kept it short keot my distance. Thank god some of the class had a test so it was silence while i had to work on a group project with T. (She asked me to be her partner btw). The whole lesson i kept to myself doing my work. T and W were pissing about signing each other up for websites. While i was doing my work T would look at me with that worried look. I tried not to care. I couldnt bare it i went to the toiler cried for a second compelled myself and looked in the mirror. I walked back to class to see W typing and email to me on W computer saying "heyyy [my name] boyyyy." W laughed i cried inside. Finally home time when we walked back i said nothing. We dropped W home then me and T had to walk 10 minutes. Not a word not a glance. I vividly remember her asking me something and i just shrugged it off. I arrived at my home where i rushed to the bathroom and cried for 30 minutes str8 until i physically couldnt form tears anynore. She sent me a text
The text read smthn like " dood when i went through ur sheet i kinda regret it and understand how much i couldve hurt you n sheet." I shoudlve blocked her then tbh. I js asked what she saw. She saw all my suicide thoughts me starving and my insecure looks. After this it actually got better. We talked alot more although the tik tok convos slowed but she vented to me and i did the same to her. It was nice. Recently however shes barely talked to me or interacted with me online. She sees my stories and ignores them. Whenever i send her a video she doesnt reply. She only replies with te spark emoji. She doesnt like my reposts and scrolls past them immediatly. It kinda makes me sad but only fuels my misanthropy. I didnt rlly do anything wrong to her. This also started happening after i came out as a-romantic which pissed off so much people for no reason. If it wasnt bad enough her reposts make fun of me. Like a couple times i sent a nothing ever happens gif and she searched it up and reposted it js to agitate me. ( u can tell she searched it up cause it the first result when you do) also goatis and stuff. Shr also send me videos without a caption doesnt check my shared feed anymore and ignores me if i send a video to her or a group shes in. She also gets mad sometimes irl and tells me to shut up and gets angry when i laugh too much .She also gives other people more attebtion and stops sending huge paragraphs to me or asking if im okay. She pushed me to 2 options. Suicide or roids. I picked roids ill hop on after exams and come back jacked asf. I dont want her i just want to look better for myself and show off to her.
My dad didnt plan on having me . I was a mistake. Even worse he refused to feed me meat or eggs as a baby. He also hated to play with me never picked me up or changed me etc. Growing up he wasnt rlly there and he thought i would fail my high school finals. Hes always doubted me.
She left me but she was a bitch anway. She abused me emotionally and physically. Also only fed me bread. She breastfed me for a short time before switching to formula. She didnt know how to take care of me either
make fun of me for my skin lie to people abt me saying muhh he puts so much shit on his skin. Make it cleari was an acvident and feel guilty for not spending enough time with me as a child.
same as the aunties but genuinely cant let go of the past
shes js annoying rlly and larps about stuff smetimes
they make fun of me for being "gay" swr i wear makeup because of my tik toks. Tell girs who are now interested in me im gay and make fun of me. And took the piss ut of my suicide attempts and my mental health
Add me online and take the piss out of me but i saw one recently i was walking home and he was standing there. Nit much taller than me much fatter and SOOO much mire acne. He stared at me smiled but quickly faked it as he realised i am what i look like in tik tok. I put my thumb abck up at him before speeding home.
Im prolly missing shit out but here are the basics. I know this is a long read but please read it. Tysm for everuthing u guys helped alot and will continue to help me.
Much love mtn_hell,
Reach for the stars
