found lookism after my girl genuinely cehated on me with a black dude, who i shit u not was genuinely a gang affiliated thug. Started hating foids and wanting to improve myself and i began gymcelling, after that i just spiralled into BP (this was abt 3 years ago back in the Dillon days), then i got a new friend group at school and applied to high schools so i larped as a normie for a while and deleted all accounts, then abt a year ago i was softmaxing still but larping as a normie and i fucked my best friend's girl cuz he was ugly as shit and i felt like it, anyways that led to a huge fallout and i lost most of my friends, then developed a new group of friends but since then ive spent much more of my time on the forums, and started PED maxing and im saving up for other hardmaxes