I've heard a lot about pregabalin and alcohol but my growth plates are open so there has to be another way without fucking up my growth or becoming addicted to a random drug at a young age being nd is probably one of the worst things to ever happen to me to the point where its a struggle just talking to people and i dont want to be like this forever
If you feel bad around people exposition therapy wont help you, you will only adapt to pain, the best way is to embrace your personality, start exploring philosophy, psychology, physics, whatever you feel interested in.
And if you have to attend social events sober just dont take things seriously, look at it not not like a movie actor, but like a movie critic, train metacognition detach your feelings from your thought process, analyze them carefully, try to understand them, and if you feel really anxious change your thinking process from "I am little shy anime girl that is scared of people" to "I fucking hate society and I pray all of you gonna vanish from my sight". Dont fight with who you are, but become the better version of it.