dude my grandpa, who was like one of my favorite family members, got up and died, and i went on a whole spiral, for almost 18 months, and i genuinely couldn’t come to terms with the fact that he had just died. i couldn’t go to my grandmas house, which was right down the road, without bawling my eyes out. I also had zero friends at school, and i was bullied relentlessly on the sports team i was on. and i couldn’t do my schoolwork, my parents were yelling at me every night about it, and everything kept sliding downwards. i got addicted to carts, and one night in july 2025, my friend nolan offered me shrooms. I took one, and i sat in a chair for hours. I literally was able to hallucinogenically come to terms with my grandpas death, why i had no friends, why i was bullied(because i was an annoying little bitch) and why i got myself addicted to carts. to this day ive never touched carts again, and ive only done eddies a few times with friends. shrooms actually helped me so much man, i will forever be a proponent of them. I haven’t touched a shroom since then either.