I'm very young for forum like this i won't say my age i only say in DM and I think about suicide like at 17 or maximum 18 , some girls like me for my looks bc before I was looking like a fucking shit everybody clowned me and ridiculised me even my "friends" it was one of the darkest time in my life now that I glow up a little bit like I starved myself for 3 weeks and then now im on diet that keep me like slim face and body you know everybody kinda treat me in a positive ways but I want to rope bc of my lacks of social skill im an fucking nd I dont even care about school now I only think the moment I will finally find a lethal medicine or maybe a gun to shot my head to end that fucking life , my life is so empty I dont even think about getting child or have a gf or a wife , i only think about the day I will finally disappear for eternity being in a non existent state where I will finally not force myself being "normal" with my friend its the only think I want and im thinking about it everyday

