Ive been deeply depressed for the past 3 years, I dont have a bed i sleep in my dirty room on the floor, never had a real friend that I could actually hang out or talk to, never had a sleepover over with anyone and barely had any online friends too. Im also a subhuman and a iqlet. Im genuinely more then cooked in life, im also about to get kicked out of school for skipping due to my face and nd behavior. I also cry myself to sleep every night and every morning I was my eyes with cold water for 10min so the cry burns are not so visible. I've experienced the worst of the worst that anyone could experience, Im actually going to rope and ive made peace with that. I purely hate myself and wish I were normal like the others. My parents always make me go in capital cities center and I always see normal people having fun in big groups, better looking girls and boys having fun together, envy has taken over my heart. I genuinely dont understand why did my parents wanted a child, why? For him to suffer unbearable years? My life is completely hopeless and I can't cope anymore, ive used every coping technique that exists under the sun ( none of them work anymore) . And if anyone leaves a hate comment, then fuck you.
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