Venting She's not the whole reason I started. (1 Viewer)

[Parsival]

I don’t want to make it seem like I started all of this because of a girl. She wasn’t the whole reason. This was always about me fixing something I knew was wrong.
That same day I saw her again, I talked with my friends about different things, but eventually the topic came back to her. They told me what I already knew: ‘You shouldn’t talk to her, you’ll just make her unhappy again because of how you are.’ It hurt not because it was harsh, but because it was true. It’s something I had already thought, but hearing it from others hits differently.

I know I hurt her, not on purpose, but because I wasn’t okay. If I had someone to guide me back then, maybe none of this would have happened. So no, this wasn’t really about her. It was about getting rid of a weight I’ve been carrying.

My goal isn’t to be in a relationship with her. It’s just to be able to do what I couldn’t do before. I don’t struggle to interact with people, except with her. She’s the only person that breaks that pattern. You could call it love, but for me it’s different. She’s the only person I chose not to see like everyone else. I know it sounds corny to say I see people as ‘fools or NPCs,’ but that’s honestly how I view most people. With her, I tried to change that.

Spoiler: Threads

https://looksmax.gg/threads/did-i-start-all-this-for-a-foid.25776/
https://looksmax.gg/threads/a-chance-to-see-her-again.27380/
https://looksmax.gg/threads/i-saw-her-again.28044/
https://looksmax.gg/threads/personality-matters.28488/

 

[hoodsickle]

Nice, I just bought a sword

 

[bacland]

Nice, I just bought a sword

cool

 

[bacland]

what type of sword?

 

[hoodsickle]

what type of sword?

Just an ordinary longsword, kinda looks like a zweihänder without the second crossguard. Its getting custom engraved though

 

[bacland]

Just an ordinary longsword, kinda looks like a zweihänder without the second crossguard. Its getting custom engraved though

fucking sick bro

 

[imogmost]

I don’t want to make it seem like I started all of this because of a girl. She wasn’t the whole reason. This was always about me fixing something I knew was wrong.
That same day I saw her again, I talked with my friends about different things, but eventually the topic came back to her. They told me what I already knew: ‘You shouldn’t talk to her, you’ll just make her unhappy again because of how you are.’ It hurt not because it was harsh, but because it was true. It’s something I had already thought, but hearing it from others hits differently.

I know I hurt her, not on purpose, but because I wasn’t okay. If I had someone to guide me back then, maybe none of this would have happened. So no, this wasn’t really about her. It was about getting rid of a weight I’ve been carrying.

My goal isn’t to be in a relationship with her. It’s just to be able to do what I couldn’t do before. I don’t struggle to interact with people, except with her. She’s the only person that breaks that pattern. You could call it love, but for me it’s different. She’s the only person I chose not to see like everyone else. I know it sounds corny to say I see people as ‘fools or NPCs,’ but that’s honestly how I view most people. With her, I tried to change that.

Spoiler: Threads

https://looksmax.gg/threads/did-i-start-all-this-for-a-foid.25776/
https://looksmax.gg/threads/a-chance-to-see-her-again.27380/
https://looksmax.gg/threads/i-saw-her-again.28044/
https://looksmax.gg/threads/personality-matters.28488/

so have u left her yet?

 

[imogmost]

so have u left her yet?

ur fucking up urself bhai ..idk man

 

[imogmost]

who

why?

i might be confused but this is ab a girl u dont wanna hurt but dont wanna leave

 

[Parsival]

i might be confused but this is ab a girl u dont wanna hurt but be with dont

It's not that I don't want to be with her, it's just that's not the goal. Interestingly, everyone who knows me knows about her, not because I tell them, but because that year we became "well-known" for being a "cute couple," even though we weren't actually anything. Because of this, everyone says I should date her. It's not that I don't want to or that it bothers me, it's just not my goal. If things work out, I might date her, but that's not the objective. The objective is to get this weight off my shoulders.

 

[imogmost]

It's not that I don't want to be with her, it's just that's not the goal. Interestingly, everyone who knows me knows about her, not because I tell them, but because that year we became "well-known" for being a "cute couple," even though we weren't actually anything. Because of this, everyone says I should date her. It's not that I don't want to or that it bothers me, it's just not my goal. If things work out, I might date her, but that's not the objective. The objective is to get this weight off my shoulders.

ur ina spot fs.