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I fucking hate my life. I keep getting destroyed by my finals. I barely sleep every night because I can’t fall asleep my brain just keeps replaying my exams and doing fucking Calculus 3 in my head. I swear I feel cursed.
And then summer comes… yeah, where I’m going to hustle nonstop and moneymaxx, but I don’t even know if I’ll actually enjoy any of it.
I feel like I’m a popular loner. People keep me around for status or entertainment, but deep down I’m pretty sure they don’t genuinely like me. They never invite me to hangouts or include me in their actual friend groups. I just have acquaintances at school. Sometimes I feel like a little jester to them.
I’m in my youth and I still don’t have genuine friends to create meaningful memories with. At this point, people on this forum feel more like my friends than people I know in real life.
College feels brutal socially. Everyone already has their own little friend group, and they’re focused on themselves because that’s enough for them. I’ve been in college for 2 years and haven’t made a single real friend. When I actually stop and think about that, it hits hard.
My only hope now is maybe meeting genuine people while going solo to clubs, at my new job, or eventually in med school in about a year. Because honestly, the loneliness is rotting me from the inside.
I feel like my youth is slipping away, and I don’t know how much I can really do about it.
And then summer comes… yeah, where I’m going to hustle nonstop and moneymaxx, but I don’t even know if I’ll actually enjoy any of it.
I feel like I’m a popular loner. People keep me around for status or entertainment, but deep down I’m pretty sure they don’t genuinely like me. They never invite me to hangouts or include me in their actual friend groups. I just have acquaintances at school. Sometimes I feel like a little jester to them.
I’m in my youth and I still don’t have genuine friends to create meaningful memories with. At this point, people on this forum feel more like my friends than people I know in real life.
College feels brutal socially. Everyone already has their own little friend group, and they’re focused on themselves because that’s enough for them. I’ve been in college for 2 years and haven’t made a single real friend. When I actually stop and think about that, it hits hard.
My only hope now is maybe meeting genuine people while going solo to clubs, at my new job, or eventually in med school in about a year. Because honestly, the loneliness is rotting me from the inside.
I feel like my youth is slipping away, and I don’t know how much I can really do about it.

