Mtn_hell
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I would like to share my expereince today. I learned a couple things and fuck i dont wana be alive anymore.
If ur wondering why i would post this i needed to vent theres prolly more to say but i feel like i couldnt say this to anyone u guys get me and i love all of you. Ty for reading if u did.
I woke up for college did my usual routine and my hair looked pretty fucking good. Jumped out the house walked 30 minutes to college and as im about to walk in i remember i forgot my fucking lanyard and class starts in 10 minutes. I walk all the way back and sit in my bed. I grab my lanyard i spray cologne and pour my water bottle. As i check my phone class started 20 mins ago NOT only that but not a single one of my freinds asked where i am. I put my headphones in and enjoyed a slow walk back to college. I got into the elevator and found myself a comfy spot in the corner. Then this black girl and her freind walk in. She looks at me and proceeds to compliment my lips.the convo went smthn like:
black girl: "Are u wearing lip gloss"
me: "no"
black girl: "Oh wow ur lips look really plump and kissable."
*tries to flaunt her ass at me*
when they got off the elevator i sighed a breath of releif
black girl: "Are u wearing lip gloss"
me: "no"
black girl: "Oh wow ur lips look really plump and kissable."
*tries to flaunt her ass at me*
when they got off the elevator i sighed a breath of releif
I walk into class and everyone stares at me i apologise to the teacher and sit in my seat. My freinds still didnt ask where i was. I feel smthn wet in my shoe. As i check i see a decent amount of blood on my foot. I then get this feeling of someone staring at me. As i scan the room i see the racist i pushed from a couple thread ago eyeing me and laughing. Im thinking its like my acne or looks or smthn. In this moment i realised i hate people. Weare a waste of species and deserve nothing but the upmost slowest death. I js wanted to be alone by myself rotting in bed in my phone yet here i am surroundedby these fuckfaces who prolly think negative stuff about me. I put my head back on the chair and dream about being alone. This feeling more or less persisted throughout the day
After college finished a bit early due to a teacher js not showing up i was walking home accompanied by 2 of my freinds. Theyre rlly kind nice people and one of them has found a partner of their dreams im sure the other will soon. Anyway as i near closer to my home i cant help but smile. Im soon to be by myself for a couple hours where i can be alone. Infront of my house i say bye and scurry in like a rat. Droppig my bag and running to my room.
My thoughts consisted of hating everyone around me wanting to die (i was a mistake of a child) wanting money for a bimax and being alone. My god im such a loser
If ur wondering why i would post this i needed to vent theres prolly more to say but i feel like i couldnt say this to anyone u guys get me and i love all of you. Ty for reading if u did.


