Venting Most of the time in such times I slap my cranium (1 Viewer)

[Mandy]

I can’t sleep,and if I somehow manage to sleep anyways I would just get 5 hours of sleep due to the fact I have to wake up early. And tomorrow isn’t even good for me,I hate PE,I have stress induced hyperhidrosis meaning that even if I for example focus on anything that requires physical or cognitive strain will cause me to uncontrollably sweat to the point where I tried different anti perspirants and none worked. I’m larping Crohn’s diseases to my teachers,meaning they don’t think twice if I miss a week of school or something but I simply can’t skip all the time. I may have a exam tomorrow in a topic I don’t even know the foundations of,that adds to it,either I risk writing a exam blind and embarrassing myself in PE or not go to school and get insulted by mother the entire day for it. Nobody gives a fuck about this in general and also the fact that my autism amplifies everything which is not just “Hehe nigga im so autistic”,no,literal autism.

Hitting myself is not something I necessarily like or do all the time,but in moments such as these I see literally no other solution,I also feel guilty for no reason,not guilty for hitting myself,guilty in general. I have a father with a mentally incapacitated mental disorder who in the day walks into my room at least once every 10 minutes for no reason,and it’s not even to check on me or something because all he does is to see if my charger is plugged in the socket which for some reason he hates when it is,or to simply do random shit and insult me for no reason.

I don’t know how I’ll manage the next few hours in the current moment,there’s so many possibilities.

 

[carbon]

sorry bro

 

[FoidSlayer]

I'm sorry to hear about your situation at school and the guilty feeling bro. I'm always free to talk

 

[sensitive sapphire]

damn nigga im so sorry.hope everything goas well tomorrow, i would skip the school public humiliation is way worse

 

[Ascension]

I can’t sleep,and if I somehow manage to sleep anyways I would just get 5 hours of sleep due to the fact I have to wake up early. And tomorrow isn’t even good for me,I hate PE,I have stress induced hyperhidrosis meaning that even if I for example focus on anything that requires physical or cognitive strain will cause me to uncontrollably sweat to the point where I tried different anti perspirants and none worked. I’m larping Crohn’s diseases to my teachers,meaning they don’t think twice if I miss a week of school or something but I simply can’t skip all the time. I may have a exam tomorrow in a topic I don’t even know the foundations of,that adds to it,either I risk writing a exam blind and embarrassing myself in PE or not go to school and get insulted by mother the entire day for it. Nobody gives a fuck about this in general and also the fact that my autism amplifies everything which is not just “Hehe nigga im so autistic”,no,literal autism.

Hitting myself is not something I necessarily like or do all the time,but in moments such as these I see literally no other solution,I also feel guilty for no reason,not guilty for hitting myself,guilty in general. I have a father with a mentally incapacitated mental disorder who in the day walks into my room at least once every 10 minutes for no reason,and it’s not even to check on me or something because all he does is to see if my charger is plugged in the socket which for some reason he hates when it is,or to simply do random shit and insult me for no reason.

I don’t know how I’ll manage the next few hours in the current moment,there’s so many possibilities.

Sorry to hear about your situation bro, there’s always light at the end of the tunnel

 

[Mandy]

Sorry to hear this bro there’s always light at the end of the tunnel

I generally know that and I seek that,I’m not nihilistic. But the issue is when I think my life would go better,the next moment there’s another issue. Right now there is literally a frauder,not in terms of looks,a literal fraud withdrawing money from my bank account and I can’t do shit since I have to wait another 2 weeks,I already lost 2000€.

 

[Godveil Heir]

slave life
dnr bruh
kill the enemies who put you in miserable situations

 

[FoidSlayer]

I generally know that and I seek that,I’m not nihilistic. But the issue is when I think my life would go better,the next moment there’s another issue. Right now there is literally a frauder,not in terms of looks,a literal fraud withdrawing money from my bank account and I can’t do shit since I have to wait another 2 weeks,I already lost 2000€.

Is it kinda like you take one step forward then two steps back?

 

[sensitive sapphire]

I generally know that and I seek that,I’m not nihilistic. But the issue is when I think my life would go better,the next moment there’s another issue. Right now there is literally a frauder,not in terms of looks,a literal fraud withdrawing money from my bank account and I can’t do shit since I have to wait another 2 weeks,I already lost 2000€.

frank tufano typa pain

 

[nineteen]

I can’t sleep,and if I somehow manage to sleep anyways I would just get 5 hours of sleep due to the fact I have to wake up early. And tomorrow isn’t even good for me,I hate PE,I have stress induced hyperhidrosis meaning that even if I for example focus on anything that requires physical or cognitive strain will cause me to uncontrollably sweat to the point where I tried different anti perspirants and none worked. I’m larping Crohn’s diseases to my teachers,meaning they don’t think twice if I miss a week of school or something but I simply can’t skip all the time. I may have a exam tomorrow in a topic I don’t even know the foundations of,that adds to it,either I risk writing a exam blind and embarrassing myself in PE or not go to school and get insulted by mother the entire day for it. Nobody gives a fuck about this in general and also the fact that my autism amplifies everything which is not just “Hehe nigga im so autistic”,no,literal autism.

Hitting myself is not something I necessarily like or do all the time,but in moments such as these I see literally no other solution,I also feel guilty for no reason,not guilty for hitting myself,guilty in general. I have a father with a mentally incapacitated mental disorder who in the day walks into my room at least once every 10 minutes for no reason,and it’s not even to check on me or something because all he does is to see if my charger is plugged in the socket which for some reason he hates when it is,or to simply do random shit and insult me for no reason.

I don’t know how I’ll manage the next few hours in the current moment,there’s so many possibilities.

1% of frank tufanos pain

sorry bro

 

[Mandy]

Is it kinda like you take one step forward then two steps back?

Yes,my life in terms of quality literally shifts minorly every single day and majorly every single week or so,the shift of where it changes (good or bad) is extremely unpredictable for me,except some facts like my father’s mental illness is progressing and each day it becomes more and more sufferable to live with him.

 

[FoidSlayer]

Yes,my life in terms of quality literally shifts minorly every single day and majorly every single week or so,the shift of where it changes (good or bad) is extremely unpredictable for me,except some facts like my father’s mental illness is progressing and each day it becomes more and more sufferable to live with him.

I understand how you feel on the quality of life shifts, it's so exhausting and misleading and I hope it stops for you (the bad things of course, I want you to get all the good things) and I'm really sorry to hear the situation with your dad, theres no much I can do as im just a dude on a forum yknow but just know that this bad stuff is temporary and that good feelings will feel so much better after having experienced the bad (sorry if that sounded corny in not too good at giving advice)

 

[Ascension]

I generally know that and I seek that,I’m not nihilistic. But the issue is when I think my life would go better,the next moment there’s another issue. Right now there is literally a frauder,not in terms of looks,a literal fraud withdrawing money from my bank account and I can’t do shit since I have to wait another 2 weeks,I already lost 2000€.

I feel you bro I lost quite a lot aswell not 2000 worth but it still feels like a complete slap in the face

 

[dior]

I can’t sleep,and if I somehow manage to sleep anyways I would just get 5 hours of sleep due to the fact I have to wake up early. And tomorrow isn’t even good for me,I hate PE,I have stress induced hyperhidrosis meaning that even if I for example focus on anything that requires physical or cognitive strain will cause me to uncontrollably sweat to the point where I tried different anti perspirants and none worked. I’m larping Crohn’s diseases to my teachers,meaning they don’t think twice if I miss a week of school or something but I simply can’t skip all the time. I may have a exam tomorrow in a topic I don’t even know the foundations of,that adds to it,either I risk writing a exam blind and embarrassing myself in PE or not go to school and get insulted by mother the entire day for it. Nobody gives a fuck about this in general and also the fact that my autism amplifies everything which is not just “Hehe nigga im so autistic”,no,literal autism.

Hitting myself is not something I necessarily like or do all the time,but in moments such as these I see literally no other solution,I also feel guilty for no reason,not guilty for hitting myself,guilty in general. I have a father with a mentally incapacitated mental disorder who in the day walks into my room at least once every 10 minutes for no reason,and it’s not even to check on me or something because all he does is to see if my charger is plugged in the socket which for some reason he hates when it is,or to simply do random shit and insult me for no reason.

I don’t know how I’ll manage the next few hours in the current moment,there’s so many possibilities.

I cant relate to the school stress but I feel for your family problems man, my dad is almost never in the state so hes extremely unavaliable and my mom has anger issues and has always taken it out on me since I was a kid. I have a couple more months and I'm gone so im just trying to thug it out till i leave but the only thing I can say is to keep your head up, ignore your parents and never give in to their bullshit. I made the mistake of matching my moms anger issues and I feel like it might start seeping into my actual social life.

 

[Ascension]

frank tufano typa pain

1% of frank tufanos pain

sorry bro

Frank tufanos bad luck has to be studied bro

 

[Michael b]

I can’t sleep,and if I somehow manage to sleep anyways I would just get 5 hours of sleep due to the fact I have to wake up early. And tomorrow isn’t even good for me,I hate PE,I have stress induced hyperhidrosis meaning that even if I for example focus on anything that requires physical or cognitive strain will cause me to uncontrollably sweat to the point where I tried different anti perspirants and none worked. I’m larping Crohn’s diseases to my teachers,meaning they don’t think twice if I miss a week of school or something but I simply can’t skip all the time. I may have a exam tomorrow in a topic I don’t even know the foundations of,that adds to it,either I risk writing a exam blind and embarrassing myself in PE or not go to school and get insulted by mother the entire day for it. Nobody gives a fuck about this in general and also the fact that my autism amplifies everything which is not just “Hehe nigga im so autistic”,no,literal autism.

Hitting myself is not something I necessarily like or do all the time,but in moments such as these I see literally no other solution,I also feel guilty for no reason,not guilty for hitting myself,guilty in general. I have a father with a mentally incapacitated mental disorder who in the day walks into my room at least once every 10 minutes for no reason,and it’s not even to check on me or something because all he does is to see if my charger is plugged in the socket which for some reason he hates when it is,or to simply do random shit and insult me for no reason.

I don’t know how I’ll manage the next few hours in the current moment,there’s so many possibilities.

Just stick through it the only place to go from failure is to win. I love you anyway bro

 

[Mandy]

I understand how you feel on the quality of life shifts, it's so exhausting and misleading and I hope it stops for you (the bad things of course, I want you to get all the good things) and I'm really sorry to hear the situation with your dad, theres no much I can do as im just a dude on a forum yknow but just know that this bad stuff is temporary and that good feelings will feel so much better after having experienced the bad (sorry if that sounded corny in not too good at giving advice)

There’s no advice for me anyways,you don’t need to try to muster up any method even if it’s merely simply. But yeah,all I can hope is that my dad gets a stroke or heart attack as soon as possible.

 

[FoidSlayer]

There’s no advice for me anyways,you don’t need to try to muster up any method even if it’s merely simply. But yeah,all I can hope is that my dad gets a stroke or heart attack as soon as possible.

Here's to hoping

 

[Z1gler7]

I can’t sleep,and if I somehow manage to sleep anyways I would just get 5 hours of sleep due to the fact I have to wake up early. And tomorrow isn’t even good for me,I hate PE,I have stress induced hyperhidrosis meaning that even if I for example focus on anything that requires physical or cognitive strain will cause me to uncontrollably sweat to the point where I tried different anti perspirants and none worked. I’m larping Crohn’s diseases to my teachers,meaning they don’t think twice if I miss a week of school or something but I simply can’t skip all the time. I may have a exam tomorrow in a topic I don’t even know the foundations of,that adds to it,either I risk writing a exam blind and embarrassing myself in PE or not go to school and get insulted by mother the entire day for it. Nobody gives a fuck about this in general and also the fact that my autism amplifies everything which is not just “Hehe nigga im so autistic”,no,literal autism.

Hitting myself is not something I necessarily like or do all the time,but in moments such as these I see literally no other solution,I also feel guilty for no reason,not guilty for hitting myself,guilty in general. I have a father with a mentally incapacitated mental disorder who in the day walks into my room at least once every 10 minutes for no reason,and it’s not even to check on me or something because all he does is to see if my charger is plugged in the socket which for some reason he hates when it is,or to simply do random shit and insult me for no reason.

I don’t know how I’ll manage the next few hours in the current moment,there’s so many possibilities.

all love bhai