I’m a person whose extremely codependent and something I’ve noticed in my relationships with other people is that half the time I don’t actually miss them I just miss having someone to talk to and just having someone who had relatable aspects to me. Recently just cut someone off but he was blackpilled and a gymcel, like you never seem to meet not normal people in real life and I guess I really struggle to connect with other people because I’m just so offputting and unsettling to them.
I mean I grew up differently and constantly faced rejection, my immediate reaction was always to cry and I always just form an attachment to anyone I feel can be my closest person like I just can’t stand being by myself.
It’s similar to a therapist I mean you pay for people to talk to you about your problems but there’s never any community for everyone to sit down, pick a topic and go around in a circle taking turns to give your take or any discussions like everyone’s just so surface level and it kills me because I’ll always have this void that can never be filled, this void of loneliness like I talk to myself so much I already know what I’m going to say that even talking to myself doesn’t work a lot of the time.
And might not even have anything to do with looks tbh, Bp is for artificial connections but I just know it formed who I am today and I struggle so hard to connect with people who didn’t have this pessimistic view of the world growing up, i still remember my primary school years crying wondering why my friends would leave me and it hurts you to the core bro.
I wonder if reading the bible and talking to God would help but he can’t verbally respond so it’s hard bro, idk has anyone recovered from the pain of being alone or codependency?
I mean I grew up differently and constantly faced rejection, my immediate reaction was always to cry and I always just form an attachment to anyone I feel can be my closest person like I just can’t stand being by myself.
It’s similar to a therapist I mean you pay for people to talk to you about your problems but there’s never any community for everyone to sit down, pick a topic and go around in a circle taking turns to give your take or any discussions like everyone’s just so surface level and it kills me because I’ll always have this void that can never be filled, this void of loneliness like I talk to myself so much I already know what I’m going to say that even talking to myself doesn’t work a lot of the time.
And might not even have anything to do with looks tbh, Bp is for artificial connections but I just know it formed who I am today and I struggle so hard to connect with people who didn’t have this pessimistic view of the world growing up, i still remember my primary school years crying wondering why my friends would leave me and it hurts you to the core bro.
I wonder if reading the bible and talking to God would help but he can’t verbally respond so it’s hard bro, idk has anyone recovered from the pain of being alone or codependency?
