So one day in 2022 when i was still in grade 8, I saw a tiktok 'trend' about looksmaxxing stuff and that teaching people how to mew correctly. I was interested in that so much I quit my old habits like eating sugar and processed food, playing game all day and especially being a weird fat cringy weeb kid. But mostly everyone in my class around that year know me as a dumb loser, short, fat nerd that not give a single care about his looks. I kept grinding and doing researches on my own till I reached to highschool at grade 11 when I finally be able to be proud of myself again. I usually post my physiques and receive some of attention from the girls my age.
But it didn't stop there, one time i posted a comment on my popular friend's clip and next day i received a lot of profiles viewed from diff accounts. I only thought it won't affect me. Untill anytime i walk by there's always a group of girls of boys staring and whispering about me and my name. And it continued untill 2 MONTHS (no one would leave me alone, they constantly stalk my profiles and sometimes even make fun of me for being 'perfomative male'). Most of the school KNOWS about me and they start to dig up my past from middle school to highschool. Bringing up when I was a dumb fat fuck loser just to start a conversation with other friends.
It's when I started to become more insecure and depressed about myself. So I always keep my head down walking by people. I just want those dumb fuck people to disappear. We are all humans after all, why judge others?
But it didn't stop there, one time i posted a comment on my popular friend's clip and next day i received a lot of profiles viewed from diff accounts. I only thought it won't affect me. Untill anytime i walk by there's always a group of girls of boys staring and whispering about me and my name. And it continued untill 2 MONTHS (no one would leave me alone, they constantly stalk my profiles and sometimes even make fun of me for being 'perfomative male'). Most of the school KNOWS about me and they start to dig up my past from middle school to highschool. Bringing up when I was a dumb fat fuck loser just to start a conversation with other friends.
It's when I started to become more insecure and depressed about myself. So I always keep my head down walking by people. I just want those dumb fuck people to disappear. We are all humans after all, why judge others?
