I still fucking live after a failed attempt and Im getting locked in a fucking fully white ass room with double metal doors ( like WTH?) I dont think im ever recovering from this, it all started because I wanted to get some girls after I got bullied for years, now im a misanthrope and I can't change it no matter how badly I want to. I see a lot of people on tiktok glorifying misanthropy but when ur actually one u start hating yourself like crazy, I wish so badly I could just change. I think that ill for sure die alone, even if I become a htn in the next 2 years ( wich won't happen) nobody wants to be friends with a misanthrope. The worst part? On the surface level i hate humanity, i hate the way people treat others and the way they are dishonest. I have fully locked my self away from society besides school. But if u dig deep enough, i actually want human connections I don't want to hate anyone at all i wish so badly it'd be different.
