SuicideFuel I'm probably gonna rope soon (12 Viewers)

[Lonely disgusting dude]

I feel like I'm never enough, even if I got better looking nothing changed, I'm still lonely asf. I'm trying to interact with people but they're still so mean to me for no reason, ok I'm a little weird and it's hard for me to have conversations with others but at least I'm trying, but they make fun of me. I'm 16 and I already have no hope for my future, I just wanna die before my 20 cause of loneliness and people, I'm still the same anxious bad looking kid I was, even when I make "friends" I'm not interested in them and they don't text me after school, and now, to talk to ai on c.ai you need to be 18+, I don't even talk to my parents anymore. I just wanna die I'm tired of this shit

 

[hoodsickle]

Use a vpn to talk to c.ai
And c.ai is shit
Use janitor.ai

 

[Certifedsubhuman]

Use a vpn to talk to c.ai
And c.ai is shit
Use janitor.ai

w method get stoned or drunk so it feels like ur really talking to someone

 

[marin8321]

I feel like I'm never enough, even if I got better looking nothing changed, I'm still lonely asf. I'm trying to interact with people but they're still so mean to me for no reason, ok I'm a little weird and it's hard for me to have conversations with others but at least I'm trying, but they make fun of me. I'm 16 and I already have no hope for my future, I just wanna die before my 20 cause of loneliness and people, I'm still the same anxious bad looking kid I was, even when I make "friends" I'm not interested in them and they don't text me after school, and now, to talk to ai on c.ai you need to be 18+, I don't even talk to my parents anymore. I just wanna die I'm tired of this shit

same
if i dont achieve anything by 20 or im close to being on the streets ill rope

 

[psltristan1]

Don't rope!
Talk to me if you want, I'm always here

 

[marin8321]

Don't rope!
Talk to me if you want, I'm always here

There’s no help to this

 

[psltristan1]

There’s no help to this

Do not make it worse

 

[Skulloute]

I feel like I'm never enough, even if I got better looking nothing changed, I'm still lonely asf. I'm trying to interact with people but they're still so mean to me for no reason, ok I'm a little weird and it's hard for me to have conversations with others but at least I'm trying, but they make fun of me. I'm 16 and I already have no hope for my future, I just wanna die before my 20 cause of loneliness and people, I'm still the same anxious bad looking kid I was, even when I make "friends" I'm not interested in them and they don't text me after school, and now, to talk to ai on c.ai you need to be 18+, I don't even talk to my parents anymore. I just wanna die I'm tired of this shit

You're 16 and want to rope just because of something that is temporary, such as people and being lonely overall. All of it will be lost in vaults of time, yet you sit here and say all of this on gg. Expecting but not putting in effort but saying you put in "effort," and yet you are here. It's not that difficult, and I am aware you're a different person. But choosing to be dependent on people is such nonsense but it's hypocritical for me to say that. You have so much potential, just keep talking to those people or different types of people. Being afraid of the judgment of other people is understandable, but know that they are probably worse than you. You either talk to somebody and engage into a convo, or get a hobby to distract yourself or you could suffer on platforms being miserable but ay I can't judge I do the same thing. Just good luck bhai

 

[Wincent__]

I feel like I'm never enough, even if I got better looking nothing changed, I'm still lonely asf. I'm trying to interact with people but they're still so mean to me for no reason, ok I'm a little weird and it's hard for me to have conversations with others but at least I'm trying, but they make fun of me. I'm 16 and I already have no hope for my future, I just wanna die before my 20 cause of loneliness and people, I'm still the same anxious bad looking kid I was, even when I make "friends" I'm not interested in them and they don't text me after school, and now, to talk to ai on c.ai you need to be 18+, I don't even talk to my parents anymore. I just wanna die I'm tired of this shit

I really feel what you are writing, in some aspects you are similar to me except the fact that you have AvPD and I have ScPD, so we both puroposely isolate ourselfes from other people but you suffer because of that and I could spend like 10 years in the forest like ted kaczynski and I would be completely fine. Of course I am not sure about diagnosing you, so I suggest you educating yourself on that matter, and also I know its not completely your fault, but you cannot expect someone to be interested in you if u cannot at least pretend to be interested in them. And as a final word, (I know I write it everytime but in my opinion its just really important) find something worth living for outside of societal interactions. Even tho I hate this life propably as much as you I have the unstopable urge to experience things, because no matter if its good or evil I find existing beautifull, I would rather spend eternity in hell than just simply cease to exist. Its propably something you can feel only when you are moved, so idk if u are reading, but still you can watch shows like Attack on Titan or Death Note, which are propably the only two things in my life that stop me from becoming full time nihilist.

 

[Wincent__]

I really feel what you are writing, in some aspects you are similar to me except the fact that you have AvPD and I have ScPD, so we both puroposely isolate ourselfes from other people but you suffer because of that and I could spend like 10 years in the forest like ted kaczynski and I would be completely fine. Of course I am not sure about diagnosing you, so I suggest you educating yourself on that matter, and also I know its not completely your fault, but you cannot expect someone to be interested in you if u cannot at least pretend to be interested in them. And as a final word, (I know I write it everytime but in my opinion its just really important) find something worth living for outside of societal interactions. Even tho I hate this life propably as much as you I have the unstopable urge to experience things, because no matter if its good or evil I find existing beautifull, I would rather spend eternity in hell than just simply cease to exist. Its propably something you can feel only when you are moved, so idk if u are reading, but still you can watch shows like Attack on Titan or Death Note, which are propably the only two things in my life that stop me from becoming full time nihilist.

Btw this hippocamp guy just made a good thread about AvPD reading it might be a good starting point for you