Over I wish I could kill myself without killing myself (1 Viewer)

[Judenbänker]

Im too afraid to do it
Im also too afraid to miss out on something
There's so much I have to do, which is a duty and also a burden, to be fair its not even a lot compared to others but I still cant handle it and Im tired
Usually Im exhausted of living and then I wake up, skip school and ldar all day but every time I do this I know its gonna cause trouble and I shouldn't do it, having this knowledge in the back of my mind makes me unable to relax on those days either so I have to 'take another day off' which doesn't work due to the same reason and I cant just not do anything for months again so I force myself into living the everyday life as I should which eventually tires me so much everything repeats
People always say I should just do it and I really dont know why I cant, Im physically and mentally incapable, I have 0 discipline when it comes to doing anything I dont want to do full heartedly
Leaving out the fact that even leaving my room is a humiliation ritual
Im not sure if Im gonna ditch school again tomorrow but probably, I shouldve submitted an art project (pictures of myself in scenery) today and should've done another one in school as well but now the day is over and it doesnt really matter I guess
I think Im failing art class due to this, that would suck
Tldr

 

[i_blame_oxytocin]

This like the 2nd stage of suicide I'd recommend seeking some help now while you still can

 

[sensitive sapphire]

im killing myself once my parents are dead

 

[buccal_FAG_removal]

Im too afraid to do it
Im also too afraid to miss out on something
There's so much I have to do, which is a duty and also a burden, to be fair its not even a lot compared to others but I still cant handle it and Im tired
Usually Im exhausted of living and then I wake up, skip school and ldar all day but every time I do this I know its gonna cause trouble and I shouldn't do it, having this knowledge in the back of my mind makes me unable to relax on those days either so I have to 'take another day off' which doesn't work due to the same reason and I cant just not do anything for months again so I force myself into living the everyday life as I should which eventually tires me so much everything repeats
People always say I should just do it and I really dont know why I cant, Im physically and mentally incapable, I have 0 discipline when it comes to doing anything I dont want to do full heartedly
Leaving out the fact that even leaving my room is a humiliation ritual
Im not sure if Im gonna ditch school again tomorrow but probably, I shouldve submitted an art project (pictures of myself in scenery) today and should've done another one in school as well but now the day is over and it doesnt really matter I guess
I think Im failing art class due to this, that would suck
Tldr

YEAH, we have all seen the vids where they miss the brain mass and they just are left with half their face JFL, i wanna just die in my sleep or smth

 

[Machiavellian]

im killing myself once my parents are dead

Kill them then kys

 

[i_blame_oxytocin]

im killing myself once my parents are dead

You'll always have people who care about
Please don't end it

 

[hippocamp]

im killing myself once my parents are dead

Kinda yea i wouldn't be doing any of ts if it wasn't for my parents

 

[sensitive sapphire]

You'll always have people who care about
Please don't end it

yeah but its not gonna suck for them as much as my parents, no one should die before their child

 

[Judenbänker]

YEAH, we have all seen the vids where they miss the brain mass and they just are left with half their face JFL, i wanna just die in my sleep or smth

Yeah it probably hurts
I feel like I would also regret it the moment theres no going back
I like living, its alive, but I wish it was a different alive

 

[hippocamp]

You'll always have people who care about
Please don't end it

that's completely false

nobody truly will ever care about you except your family (exception if you've a shitty family which isn't too rare nowadays)

and they too will care only to some extent

 

[Judenbänker]

This like the 2nd stage of suicide I'd recommend seeking some help now while you still can

Im in therapy but its bluepilled bs

 

[buccal_FAG_removal]

Yeah it probably hurts
I feel like I would also regret it the moment theres no going back
I like living, its alive, but I wish it was a different alive

I recon if i took lots of painkillers or like OD'd in my sleep i would be happy with that, i would never slit my wrists thats just attention seeking AHAHA

 

[sensitive sapphire]

Im in therapy but its bluepilled bs

considering how different our ideology is, we are really similar. i hope it gets better for both of us, if u ever need to vent dm me.

 

[Judenbänker]

I recon if i took lots of painkillers or like OD'd in my sleep i would be happy with that, i would never slit my wrists thats just attention seeking AHAHA

I like your name and avi lol theyre hilarious
OD would probably be fine if you're 100% sure about it but I coulndt bear knowing Im gonna die and potentially not wanting it anymore

 

[Judenbänker]

considering how different our ideology is, we are really similar. i hope it gets better for both of us, if u ever need to vent dm me.

Thanks bro same goes for you ofc

 

[buccal_FAG_removal]

I like your name and avi lol theyre hilarious
OD would probably be fine if you're 100% sure about it but I coulndt bear knowing Im gonna die and potentially not wanting it anymore

I photoshopped it myself thank you bhai

 

[Bukoz]

Im too afraid to do it
Im also too afraid to miss out on something
There's so much I have to do, which is a duty and also a burden, to be fair its not even a lot compared to others but I still cant handle it and Im tired
Usually Im exhausted of living and then I wake up, skip school and ldar all day but every time I do this I know its gonna cause trouble and I shouldn't do it, having this knowledge in the back of my mind makes me unable to relax on those days either so I have to 'take another day off' which doesn't work due to the same reason and I cant just not do anything for months again so I force myself into living the everyday life as I should which eventually tires me so much everything repeats
People always say I should just do it and I really dont know why I cant, Im physically and mentally incapable, I have 0 discipline when it comes to doing anything I dont want to do full heartedly
Leaving out the fact that even leaving my room is a humiliation ritual
Im not sure if Im gonna ditch school again tomorrow but probably, I shouldve submitted an art project (pictures of myself in scenery) today and should've done another one in school as well but now the day is over and it doesnt really matter I guess
I think Im failing art class due to this, that would suck
Tldr

its the world we live in you need to go to therapist im having appointment in a week i hope he will help i have simillar problems im skipping school very often and i always tell myself i would learn at home but i just have zero motivation and just ldar im trying to dont care crazy that we are just slaves caring about grades just to work at 9-7 i fell frightened while i think about this i hope you will get better .

 

[hippocamp]

I recon if i took lots of painkillers or like OD'd in my sleep i would be happy with that, i would never slit my wrists thats just attention seeking AHAHA

Bro istg blade cuts on arms and shi and this way of self harming is so faggy,

I used to talk to this girl and she always used to fucking mention how she self harms and there's nothing else to do and how that's the only thing that gives her peace, basically tried to farm sympathy, like BITCH just kill yourself if it's that bad

 

[buccal_FAG_removal]

I like your name and avi lol theyre hilarious
OD would probably be fine if you're 100% sure about it but I coulndt bear knowing Im gonna die and potentially not wanting it anymore

Like fr im not suicidal but i deff would not mind dying

 

[buccal_FAG_removal]

Bro istg blade cuts on arms and shi and this way of self harming is so faggy,

I used to talk to this girl and she always used to fucking mention how she self harms and there's nothing else to do and how that's the only thing that gives her peace, basically tried to farm sympathy, like BITCH just kill yourself if it's that bad

FR, i have the same thought process like i talked to a girl with scars on her thighs plus why is it only foids that cut themselfes??

 

[Judenbänker]

its the world we live in you need to go to therapist im having appointment in a week i hope he will help i have simillar problems im skipping school very often and i always tell myself i would learn at home but i just have zero motivation and just ldar im trying to dont care crazy that we are just slaves caring about grades just to work at 9-7 i fell frightened while i think about this i hope you will get better .

Youre 100% right and I feel you but my therapy aint working

 

[Alyx]

Im in therapy but its bluepilled bs

Have you tried Prozac?

 

[hippocamp]

FR, i have the same thought process like i talked to a girl with scars on her thighs plus why is it only foids that cut themselfes??

attention seeking

 

[hippocamp]

@Alyx I'm genuinely gonna rape you nigger

 

[jamzat]

Youre 100% right and I feel you but my therapy aint working

Just know it won't get worse. You'll be okay. We all die one day; there's no need for that day to come prematurely, brah. Stay strong.

 

[Bukoz]

Youre 100% right and I feel you but my therapy aint working

you need good therapist not the one that will comfort you all the time they just want money i think i have good one i asked my friend who had few therapist and he said he helped him the most

 

[hippocamp]

@Alyx tranny ass faggot stop puking on my posts

 

[Judenbänker]

you need good therapist not the one that will comfort you all the time they just want money i think i have good one i asked my friend who had few therapist and he said he helped him the most

She's not doing that but I mainly went to therapy for BDD and her emotional cope cant negate my knowledge of the blackpilled truth which is objectively proven by literally every study on that matter
I hope you got a good one though

 

[methbombtfd]

Hey man I know like what its like to be super depressed having been surrounded by people like that my whole life.
It only gets better when you make it better, it sounds retarded but it really is true.
If you need help or r alone and feel down I can be there 4u to comfort because I love you all (excluding atrophic)
don't kys please
I'm up at pretty much any hour u can think of I get no sleep so text me bhai

 

[hippocamp]

She's not doing that but I mainly went to therapy for BDD and her emotional cope cant negate my knowledge of the blackpilled truth which is objectively proven by literally every study on that matter
I hope you got a good one though

What did she say

 

[FoidSlayer]

Being self aware while committing self destructive actions is the worst. I relate to you deeply

 

[Alyx]

She's not doing that but I mainly went to therapy for BDD and her emotional cope cant negate my knowledge of the blackpilled truth which is objectively proven by literally every study on that matter
I hope you got a good one though

Try an SSRI. It's probably the only thing that can help with your depression in this case.

 

[hippocamp]

Being self aware while committing self destructive actions is the worst. I relate to you deeply

yeah, your own fuckass brain guilt trips you to Uganda for actions it did

 

[FoidSlayer]

yeah, your own fuckass brain guilt trips you to Uganda for actions it did

I wanna do stuff and I tell myself I'll do them but I never do and I just rot

 

[Dexter]

 

[hippocamp]

Moderator btw

 

[Dexter]

Moderator btw

hey whats with all this animosity buddy?

 

[Judenbänker]

What did she say

Exactly what you'd expect

it doesnt matter to most people, its only my subjective Exagerration, more confidence would boost my self esteem and then she found out Im on incel forums and suspected that "I was getting wrong narratives from there", no argument against the studies I've shown her either



In the end all I get is some bullshit diagnosis
Like wow yes I already knew I was extremely unhappy with myself thanks for confirming lol?

Even wanted to put me into stationary if I didnt go to school again

 

[Judenbänker]

Try an SSRI. It's probably the only thing that can help with your depression in this case.

I am not trooning myself lmfao forget it

 

[buccal_FAG_removal]

Try an SSRI. It's probably the only thing that can help with your depression in this case.

holy shit i might be depressed

 

[Alyx]

I am not trooning myself lmfao forget it

Fucking Idiot.

 

[Judenbänker]

Fucking Idiot.

Yeah dude kill your feelings with jew drugs fuckass troon

 

[XvideosDemon]

Im too afraid to do it
Im also too afraid to miss out on something
There's so much I have to do, which is a duty and also a burden, to be fair its not even a lot compared to others but I still cant handle it and Im tired
Usually Im exhausted of living and then I wake up, skip school and ldar all day but every time I do this I know its gonna cause trouble and I shouldn't do it, having this knowledge in the back of my mind makes me unable to relax on those days either so I have to 'take another day off' which doesn't work due to the same reason and I cant just not do anything for months again so I force myself into living the everyday life as I should which eventually tires me so much everything repeats
People always say I should just do it and I really dont know why I cant, Im physically and mentally incapable, I have 0 discipline when it comes to doing anything I dont want to do full heartedly
Leaving out the fact that even leaving my room is a humiliation ritual
Im not sure if Im gonna ditch school again tomorrow but probably, I shouldve submitted an art project (pictures of myself in scenery) today and should've done another one in school as well but now the day is over and it doesnt really matter I guess
I think Im failing art class due to this, that would suck
Tldr

I feel the exact same way rn atleast

Maybe later I’ll feel better prob not tho just back too the same routine can’t even look at myself anymore

 

[hippocamp]

Exactly what you'd expect

it doesnt matter to most people, its only my subjective Exagerration, more confidence would boost my self esteem and then she found out Im on incel forums and suspected that "I was getting wrong narratives from there", no argument against the studies I've shown her either



In the end all I get is some bullshit diagnosis
Like wow yes I already knew I was extremely unhappy with myself thanks for confirming lol?

Even wanted to put me into stationary if I didnt go to school again

Istg these cucks are js robbing

yo this made me realise, it's nearly impossible for anyone to blue pill any of us atp lol, not even professional therapists can, which sounds kinda fucked

 

[methbombtfd]

I wanna do stuff and I tell myself I'll do them but I never do and I just rot

tbh you just gotta force urself, or maybe pick up a nootropic like Adderall
I suck on robodick for its nicotine content

 

[FoidSlayer]

tbh you just gotta force urself, or maybe pick up a nootropic like Adderall
I suck on robodick for its nicotine content

I wanted to get some Adderall, jus need to go to my friend to get it tho.

 

[Alyx]

Yeah dude kill your feelings with jew drugs fuckass troon

@Syna Please destroy him with your med school and pharma knowlegde.

 

[hippocamp]

hey whats with all this animosity buddy?

Nopsies WE ALL love you Dexter

 

[methbombtfd]

I think all of you guys would benefit off of psychedelics no jokes @Judenbänker @FoidSlayer @hippocamp

 

[FoidSlayer]

I think all of you guys would benefit off of psychedelics no jokes @Judenbänker @FoidSlayer @hippocamp

Psychedelics...?