My ex breaked up with me.
I loved her more than my fucking mother i had almost every possible first expirience: first kiss, first hug, first handhold, i tried the tit.
Every day i look in the mirror and i feel disgusted and it was like that long before this its been around for two years, the only time when i felt normal and not ugly was when i started dating her, i thought we could go for so much longer.
Tbh when i started dating i finally got some motivation to do anything in my life and i saw some sense in it, i wanted to end the school, go study become an IT specialist and start living with her, but at one moment she fully changed from loving girl to cold ass rock.
Rn i cant even stand up from my bed, i didnt showered for a week and didnt ate anything too.
Im thinking about drinking like 60 pills of paracetamol and like 30 pills of citramon so i can end this bullshit.