I don't care if it sounds like whining; I don't have anywhere else to post.
It's just so fucking depressing and monotonous trying to wake up each morning and get through the day when you know it's just going to land you in the same spot as yesterday. Nothing new and nothing changes, especially whenever I look at the mirror.
I always wish that my acne or asymmetry would suddenly go away, but it never does. I fucking hate having to see the reflection of myself in every reflective surface. I know people on my account give me compliments, but who gives a single fuck if YOU don't feel that way, or when LIFE doesn't reflect that.
I don't get that treatment and never will until I get surgery to fix my deformed face. Why do I have to spend money on shit just for people to treat me like I'm human, just for me to be satisfied with myself, because my mom and dad couldn't have been bothered to raise me properly without any kind of developmental issues?
This shit is so annoying and makes me want to climb into a black pit where nobody can see me, and so I can see nobody else. I'm so tired of my fucked up face.