I just saw the most beautiful woman in my eyes, so far she is probably the most beautiful one, Its like God has seen my thoughts and decided to place that woman exactly into such random moment in the entire span of my life, im incredibly overwhelmed by this, it was mere seconds but ive seen anything i have wanted, ever since that 4 hours ago i feel nothing but just sadness, this woman fried my dopamine receptors by just existing, ive seen many beautiful blondes but she was the literally the one for me, Blonde Tall, Masculine leaning skull structure but still giving of that feminine vibe, Well groomed and she was in her 20 or 30s, and then the devil came a 40 year old LTN probably a bit smaller than her and this added more frustration because this made me realize im the actual loser in this story and always was, i daydream about woman who dont even know I exist and it hurts it hurts me alot, i will never be able to bag such woman because no matter what i will improve even if i ascend from LTN i will be locked in MTN hell with my 5'10 Manlet height, my fucking ugly face oh God why did you do this to me why did you punish me in such way, This is such a horrible way to punish me and I hate myself for this, i was supposed to enjoy but ever since i spotted that beauty ive been locked in my own mind just imagining that she acknowledges my existence, life is so cruel and my life is so shitty for this, it will probably fuck up my mentality for the entire month as Stupid as it sounds, Something has been taken from me which was never there
