Manohateshimself
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i am 19 years old,when i was younger i was skinny and had still no sharp jawline then i became older and fat , i lost the weight a while ago in one year from 95 kg- 60kg i started fasting and at one time i was 56 kg with almost no fat but because i was fat before i have Anterior Pelvic Tilt my jawline is the sharpest it couldve been now when i look at the past but when i starve myself its much better and when i weight less, the question is do i wanna feel good and look bad from my point of view or do i wanna look the best version of myself but the feeling of fainting always and starving that brings hatred to myself when i fail sometimes but the choice is easy i wanna starve myself that is the only way i know myself and its my new reality for a long time now only because my mom said i must eat and its hot weather i listened and in 1 week i am around 60 now what can i do better i have also forward head posture (turtleneck) please help me guys i beg you, i was in depression a long time and hatred towards the world and i am positive now but i am so fking ugly because of this choice, sorry for the grammar , i dont speak english very well, please help me and give me advise everything it would take i would do i just cant live this way anymore i am 165cm and even when i looked good at some point i never expierenced love not from them and not from my family my dad always hitted me and i hurt myself to i just hate this society and i wanna look good for myself and i would hurt all girls , i would let them fall in love and let them watch as i cheat on them i would make them obsessed with love bombing and let them hurt like i did but its just a dream now,please help me guys and let this be my reality, i beg you
