I admire beauty so much (3 Viewers)

[sensitive sapphire]

mine makes me feel like a person who should have never been born

yes exactly

 

[the wizard]

there sum shi abt beauty is gentle almost quiet but it hits me harder than it should cuz It stays with me and instead of feeling calm, it turns into something tight in my chest, like I’m holding onto a feeling Idk what to do with ngl

beauty stuns me with pain and silence, all these beautiful women i see hurt me with their looks

 

[the wizard]

mine makes me feel like a person who should have never been born

sometimes i think people should be genetically modified

 

[Brian]

beauty stuns me with pain and silence, all these beautiful women i see hurt me with their looks

bro fuck, it hurts so bad

 

[sensitive sapphire]

sometimes i think people should be genetically modified

from what i know they were working on it back in 2010s

 

[Brian]

sometimes i think people should be genetically modified

i hope something like that comes out

 

[the wizard]

bro fuck, it hurts so bad

i saw one htb in boston, i never want to go outside again. she was so fucking pretty

 

[the wizard]

i hope something like that comes out

i hope people see the truth more often

 

[sensitive sapphire]

from what i know they were working on it back in 2010s

yeah i was kinda right

 

[Brian]

i saw one htb in boston, i never want to go outside again. she was so fucking pretty

I saw this girl on tiktok, ik how many ppl are desparatley trying or how hypergamous and a bad person she might be, but omg she was so pretty and on a wheel chair.

 

[the wizard]

I saw this girl on tiktok, ik how many ppl are desparatley trying or how hypergamous and a bad person she might be, but omg she was so pretty and on a wheel chair.

i mean what was it about her?

 

[Brian]

i hope people see the truth more often

i hope bro. it almost makes me feel suffocated, the pain

 

[the wizard]

yeah i was kinda right
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needs to happen on a larger scale

 

[Brian]

beauty is a punishment

 

[the wizard]

beauty is a punishment

to us not to them

 

[sensitive sapphire]

beauty is a punishment

a punishment for us not the ones who possess it

 

[Brian]

to us not to them

exactly. its something beyond reaching. i think the girl's name was elisse or ellise on tt

 

[Brian]

a punishment for us not the ones who possess it

plato defined beauty like it triggers longing that feels like pain or agitation

 

[Brian]

plato defined beauty like it triggers longing that feels like pain or agitation

one thing im sure abt is im never getting teen love again and i left a modest, beautiful and strictly parented girl who wasnt even allowed to use a smartphone myself

 

[sensitive sapphire]

plato defined beauty like it triggers longing that feels like pain or agitation

when i read the "beauty would save the world" line in idiot by dostoevsky, i cried i little

 

[the wizard]

one thing im sure abt is im never getting teen love again and i left a modest, beautiful and strictly parented girl who wasnt even allowed to use a smartphone myself

wow, at least u had a shot

 

[Brian]

when i read the "beauty would save the world" line in idiot by dostoevsky, i cried i little

whilst im venting on u amd wizard rn, i genuinely am tearing up

 

[the wizard]

whilst im venting on u amd wizard rn, i genuinely am tearing up

i am empty, there are no tears left to cry for me

 

[Brian]

wow, at least u had a shot

she wasnt a shot brother... she was something i could never expres into words, her beauty and modesty, and at that time i didnt know their nature and i wasnt even "bped"

 

[Brian]

i am empty, there are no tears left to cry for me

i wish i could cry all my tears away

 

[the wizard]

i wish i could cry all my tears away

i cry so easily, never for physical reasons tho, tho one day it just stopped, i don’t know why, it hasn’t returned since i reconciled with my grandfathers extremely sudden and terrible death via a trip on shrooms

 

[sensitive sapphire]

i am empty, there are no tears left to cry for me

for a long time i couldnt cry even tho i wanted to, it was like i had this mental block from all the muh boys dont cry, but than read this book while i was in school during a class and i just couldnt hold myself, i want to the bathroom and cried for 15 minutes. ever since i cant stop and i cry at every stupid shit

 

[Brian]

i cry so easily, never for physical reasons tho, tho one day it just stopped, i don’t know why, it hasn’t returned since i reconciled with my grandfathers extremely sudden and terrible death via a trip on shrooms

Im sorry brother. when i was 9, and my father passed away from a heart attack, i couldnt cry. and i was so confused cuz of gvrt vechiles around our house and even some army ones and yes that confusion made me cry hard enough that now i cry at small things

 

[the wizard]

for a long time i couldnt cry even tho i wanted to, it was like i had this mental block from all the muh boys dont cry, but than read this book while i was in school during a class and i just couldnt hold myself, i want to the bathroom and cried for 15 minutes. ever since i cant stop and i cry at every stupid shit

yeah, opposite for me tho, i just stopped, not a blockage, just nothing, i can’t cry anymore, ive cried so much i dont have any tears left

 

[the wizard]

this is one of the few heartfelt convos i’ve ever had on .gg

 

[sensitive sapphire]

Im sorry brother. when i was 9, and my father passed away from a heart attack, i couldnt cry. and i was so confused cuz of gvrt vechiles around our house and even some army ones and yes that confusion made me cry hard enough that now i cry at small things

my genuine condolences, im so sorry

 

[Brian]

yeah, opposite for me tho, i just stopped, not a blockage, just nothing, i can’t cry anymore, ive cried so much i dont have any tears left

true. i hate it so much bro, rn whyd i have to cry alone if i didnntt know all ts and wasnt the way i am

 

[the wizard]

Im sorry brother. when i was 9, and my father passed away from a heart attack, i couldnt cry. and i was so confused cuz of gvrt vechiles around our house and even some army ones and yes that confusion made me cry hard enough that now i cry at small things

i’m sorry aswell, this is a terrible occurrence, why is everyone here so unlucky, it is a congregation and i am among it

 

[sensitive sapphire]

true. i hate it so much bro, rn whyd i have to cry alone if i didnntt know all ts and wasnt the way i am

its not us, its the world. all this hate, all this fucking animosity, we were bound to be this way

 

[Brian]

this is one of the few heartfelt convos i’ve ever had on .gg

i have a frnd on tt, and he feels the same. i taked abgt him earlier, and yk what? hes a htn and got the most beautiful gf ever and i cried hard enough that i though my ears were bleeding. i still talk to him but same person is saying "u are dumbbb bruvv"

 

[Brian]

its not us, its the world. all this hate, all this fucking detest, we were bound to be this way

its nature. we cant really defeat nature.

 

[the wizard]

its nature. we cant really defeat nature.

it has cursed us all, we look to the heavens and it laughs down at us

 

[Brian]

i’m sorry aswell, this is a terrible occurrence, why is everyone here so unlucky, it is a congregation and i am among it

theres a poem i my language says;
o nothing may harm u, may god take me and fix everything. basically it says just take me away god and fix everything

 

[Brian]

it has cursed us all, we look to the heavens and it laughs down at us

fuck. i think i genuinely gna die khhv tbh. Ive bleed all my life watcching beauty and admiring em

 

[the wizard]

fuck. i think i genuinely gna die khhv tbh. Ive bleed all my life watcching beauty and admiring em

i’ve accepted my fate

 

[Brian]

i’ve accepted my fate

it hurts in a way i cant even express into words man

 

[sensitive sapphire]

i’ve accepted my fate

i havent, not really. im gonna to my best to change it

 

[the wizard]

i havent, not really. im gonna to my best to change it

yeah what i mean is that looks wise i will make it, but i will still be the same person, nothing will change

 

[the wizard]

it hurts in a way i cant even express into words man

it’s a stab and stab again

 

[sensitive sapphire]

yeah what i mean is that looks wise i will make it, but i will still be the same person, nothing will change

always a chud deep within

 

[Brian]

i havent, not really. im gonna to my best to change it

heres when the surgeon comes hahah

 

[Brian]

it’s a stab and stab again

i hate this sudden wave of emotions, full of nostaligia and feelings and thoughts which i cant stop thinking abt

 

[Brian]

sorryfor typo im coding rn

 

[the wizard]

i hate this sudden wave of emotions, full of nostaligia and feelings and thoughts which i cant stop thinking abt

it’s a wave of reality

 

[Brian]

it’s a wave of reality

and thats why it hurts