Someone I know irl who has had multiple girlfriends before invited me out on a "2 man" where his girl, her friend (we'll call her Alyssa) and he will be there. I've told my friend that I find Alyssa attractive, which he then asks if i'm down to do a "2 man" with him, as he was already going to go out with his girl on new years eve, I tell him that "I need to ascend first" (he knows about BP and all that shit so he understands). New year's eve rolls around and its around 9:30 PM and I get a message from him telling me to "pull up" to a pub hes at with his girl, I tell him I can't, truthfully it was because I frankly could not be bothered to. He then tells me that Alyssa wants me to come and starts explaining that apparently she brought my Instagram out the random and he asked if I should come and she said yeah. I knew this was bullshit from the get go, but then he starts telling me how this is my chance and that I need to come, I tell him i'm dirty and need to shower first and he says fine and to be quick, anyways 30 mins later i'm all prepared but I genuinely felt like I couldn't go, I don't know what it is, but whenever I have a genuine opportunity to start something with someone i'm attracted to I just get this feeling in my body like I will freeze when I get there and I shouldn't go. Anyway he keeps asking me where i'm at and if i'm coming, I then make some bullshit about how my parents left me home alone for new years eve so I can't leave the house. After I message him how his date went with his girl and he says it went so well and that I missed my chance and they were talking about me as i've met her before.
Now in all honesty, I think i'm like a HLTN-LMTN, i've been rated a LMTN before with decent appeal.
Is there something genuinely wrong with me? I started all this shit with improving myself for benefits with females, but as I get some sort of attention I just physically can't do it?
Now in all honesty, I think i'm like a HLTN-LMTN, i've been rated a LMTN before with decent appeal.
Is there something genuinely wrong with me? I started all this shit with improving myself for benefits with females, but as I get some sort of attention I just physically can't do it?
