yvllord
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so im currently meant to be doing my gcses (if you dont live in the uk gcse are exams british students take at 15-16 in multiple subjects, and the grades matter for college and jobs) but due to lack of education withdrawing from school im unable to do them.
i left school for good around nearly 3 years ago now (year 9) and have not received assistance regarding education, a plan or anything and i have goals in life but cant help but think im cooked. obviously being out of education does not determine my capability but theres more to it than that.
i dont wanna be a bum, but i have no motivation and cannot break my current cycle of living the same day daily (staying up all night, sleeping all day, then spend the time im awake abusing different substances bedrotting) even if i could, i have no idea what im even meant to be learning in regards to my gcses. but that doesnt matter as i am unable to do them anyway. i really wanted to do them i just wanted to achieve something and i had faith in myself and wanted to become better, but i kept procrastinating. i cant fully blame myself tho as people had opportunities to get me some form of education, so i blame my mother.
anyway thats kind of off topic so i will get to my point, i want to emigrate as soon as possible. the goal is 18 but may be unrealistic due to circumstances. how could i rebuild my intelligence i was praised for as a child that i wasted for short term enjoyment as a teenager? what could i do to achieve my goals is it too late? realistically id like to go to uni somewhere else, but i dont even know where to begin. i will obviously have to take my gcses at some point but im so stuck and theres quite literally not much i can do. if i want to get somewhere in the future realistically i need to make a change now.
i left school for good around nearly 3 years ago now (year 9) and have not received assistance regarding education, a plan or anything and i have goals in life but cant help but think im cooked. obviously being out of education does not determine my capability but theres more to it than that.
i dont wanna be a bum, but i have no motivation and cannot break my current cycle of living the same day daily (staying up all night, sleeping all day, then spend the time im awake abusing different substances bedrotting) even if i could, i have no idea what im even meant to be learning in regards to my gcses. but that doesnt matter as i am unable to do them anyway. i really wanted to do them i just wanted to achieve something and i had faith in myself and wanted to become better, but i kept procrastinating. i cant fully blame myself tho as people had opportunities to get me some form of education, so i blame my mother.
anyway thats kind of off topic so i will get to my point, i want to emigrate as soon as possible. the goal is 18 but may be unrealistic due to circumstances. how could i rebuild my intelligence i was praised for as a child that i wasted for short term enjoyment as a teenager? what could i do to achieve my goals is it too late? realistically id like to go to uni somewhere else, but i dont even know where to begin. i will obviously have to take my gcses at some point but im so stuck and theres quite literally not much i can do. if i want to get somewhere in the future realistically i need to make a change now.
relatable

