Parsival
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When I first joined this forum, I did it not for looksmax, but because I genuinely believed I needed to mentally prepare myself before entering university. I thought that once I got there, everything that made me “above average” would disappear and I would become just another insignificant person. Because of that fear, I wanted a place where I could reflect and encourage deeper introspection, journaling, and genuine self-understanding instead of the superficial mindset that dominates most spaces like this. In some way, this forum became part of my routine during a stage of transition in my life. But yesterday, after going to the university orientation, seeing the environment, the students, and interacting with the people there, I realized the reality. I expected to instantly feel average compared to everyone around me, but that never happened. If anything, the experience made me realize again that I had been scared for nothing.
This forum helped me clarify certain things about myself. Some of my threads probably sounded overly introspective, but they were genuine reflections of how I think all the time. I don’t regret being here. But remaining indefinitely in environments centered around dissatisfaction eventually turns stagnation into identity.
To the people on this forum, even if I criticized this place a lot, I still appreciate the fact that it existed during a stage of my life where I genuinely needed somewhere to externalize my thoughts.
Some of you are probably far more capable than you think, but you waste too much time consuming negativity, comparing yourselves endlessly, or waiting for some external change to magically fix your life. At some point you need to stop endlessly observing yourself and actually start living. Improvement without direction eventually becomes self-destruction disguised as progress. Try to develop your own reasoning. Stop absorbing identities, opinions, and behaviors from the internet as if they were your own personality. Most people never become individuals, they just become combinations of influences they never questioned. Even with all my criticism toward this community, I still hope some of you manage to build lives that genuinely satisfy you instead of remaining trapped in cycles of frustration and imitation.
FoidSlayer
hoodsickle
i_blame_oxytocin
goyboy.hero
the wizard
Amygdala
Includings
I hope you make the right decisions in your lives and resolve whatever you're going through. Remember that I will always be watching over you from hell.
And lastly, I wanted to give special thanks to the user who was always there for me, reading every one of my threads, and who became a part of my life and, honestly, the most important person to me regarding this forum. I don't know what I would have done without him.
RafaelfromtheO
I’ll be stepping away from the looksmaxxing space altogether, since I’ve already learned most of what I could from it over the past few years. It’s been a fun journey.
That’s all I wanted to say. Chapter closed.
Thanks for everything,
Parsival
This forum helped me clarify certain things about myself. Some of my threads probably sounded overly introspective, but they were genuine reflections of how I think all the time. I don’t regret being here. But remaining indefinitely in environments centered around dissatisfaction eventually turns stagnation into identity.
To the people on this forum, even if I criticized this place a lot, I still appreciate the fact that it existed during a stage of my life where I genuinely needed somewhere to externalize my thoughts.
Some of you are probably far more capable than you think, but you waste too much time consuming negativity, comparing yourselves endlessly, or waiting for some external change to magically fix your life. At some point you need to stop endlessly observing yourself and actually start living. Improvement without direction eventually becomes self-destruction disguised as progress. Try to develop your own reasoning. Stop absorbing identities, opinions, and behaviors from the internet as if they were your own personality. Most people never become individuals, they just become combinations of influences they never questioned. Even with all my criticism toward this community, I still hope some of you manage to build lives that genuinely satisfy you instead of remaining trapped in cycles of frustration and imitation.
GAVA is actually a real girl a genuinely good girl. But back then I was in a mentality where I genuinely felt I couldn’t be with her without eventually hurting her, and that’s why I constantly avoided her. Even now, I would probably still avoid her for the same reason. Most of my threads about her were never really about “love.” They were more like attempts to understand myself and change enough to someday be able to fulfill what she wanted from me without causing damage in the process. But I failed at that. Honestly, I just hope she eventually finds someone who truly wants something serious with her, because that person was never me. In a way, on this forum, I often used GAVA as a representation of what happens if I actually choose to take someone seriously instead of remaining detached like I usually am.
It's curious how exactly today, but a year ago, was the day his mother died.
View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bf12u1PtHho
It's curious how exactly today, but a year ago, was the day his mother died.
I never really talked much about Anny lately, and honestly I probably shouldn’t, but I’ll say a little.
As some of you know, she was going through a lot of problems, and eventually we both realized that nothing around her was truly getting better. Her parents were constantly in legal conflicts with each other, she had no real friends, was isolated most of the time, and lived in what was basically a miserable routine. I tried to help as much as I could, and I genuinely did everything a 16 year old boyfriend realistically could do. Laughter, food, going out together, long conversations, trying to make her feel understood, trying to give her moments where life didn’t feel as heavy. But there are situations where effort simply isn’t enough. No 16 year old is capable of fixing the kind of problems life had placed on her. She committed suicide.
As some of you know, she was going through a lot of problems, and eventually we both realized that nothing around her was truly getting better. Her parents were constantly in legal conflicts with each other, she had no real friends, was isolated most of the time, and lived in what was basically a miserable routine. I tried to help as much as I could, and I genuinely did everything a 16 year old boyfriend realistically could do. Laughter, food, going out together, long conversations, trying to make her feel understood, trying to give her moments where life didn’t feel as heavy. But there are situations where effort simply isn’t enough. No 16 year old is capable of fixing the kind of problems life had placed on her. She committed suicide.
FoidSlayer
hoodsickle
i_blame_oxytocin
goyboy.hero
the wizard
Amygdala
Includings I hope you make the right decisions in your lives and resolve whatever you're going through. Remember that I will always be watching over you from hell.
And lastly, I wanted to give special thanks to the user who was always there for me, reading every one of my threads, and who became a part of my life and, honestly, the most important person to me regarding this forum. I don't know what I would have done without him.
RafaelfromtheO I’ll be stepping away from the looksmaxxing space altogether, since I’ve already learned most of what I could from it over the past few years. It’s been a fun journey.
That’s all I wanted to say. Chapter closed.
Thanks for everything,
Parsival
enjoy ur life outside of this forum
