Venting Everybody tells me nothing (1 Viewer)

[Parsival]

I know it might sound weird/corny when I say I see people as ‘fools’ or ‘NPCs’, so I want to explain what I mean.

Spoiler: Long context

When I was a kid, I started noticing that most people don’t really think for themselves. Back then it was just something curious, not something that bothered me. But when I got to school, it became frustrating. Every time I interacted with someone, they would respond exactly how I expected them to respond, like they were following a script. It wasn’t just what they said, it was their attitude and personality too. It felt like people were just picking a personality from social media and trying to imitate it as closely as possible. After a while, interactions started to feel predictable and almost pointless. I didn’t isolate myself, I still interacted normally, but internally I felt disconnected, even disgusted sometimes. This got worse with social media trends. Every new thing that appeared, everyone would adapt to it, especially girls, but also guys. A lot of guys were trying to base their personality on fictional characters or online images instead of being themselves. Others were obsessed with getting a girlfriend, which I always found strange, being that desperate for validation. Maybe part of that came from me maturing later than others, since I was always younger than most people in my grade. Because of all this, I started seeing people in a detached way. But I didn’t actually like feeling that way. I didn’t like that sense of disconnection, that feeling of “everybody tells me nothing.” So when GAVA came into my life, things felt different. She wasn’t completely different, she also had influences from the internet, but her interests were genuine, things she had liked since she was a kid, not just something to fit in. People even saw her as “weird” for that. With her, I tried to change how I saw at least one person. But that led to everything I’ve already talked about. And now I’m still here, surrounded by people who don’t think for themselves, who don’t try to be genuine, just following the path they’re supposed to follow. Even in university, where you’d expect more independent thinking, I mostly find people trying to act intellectually superior in a very superficial way. That’s the part that frustrates me the most.

Spoiler: Short version

I've always felt that most people don't think for themselves and just follow patterns, which made interactions predictable and empty. I didn't like feeling that way, so I tried to change it with one person, GAVA. That's why she's "important" to me, not because of love, but because it was a failed attempt to stop feeling disconnected. Right now, I'm in an environment where that same pattern is repeated everywhere, which frustrates me a bit.

Niggas, I'm writing this stuff because I have nothing else to do, I'm on vacation and I'm just waiting for Friday. I could go out now but it's too hot outside.

 

[convict]

I know it might sound weird/corny when I say I see people as ‘fools’ or ‘NPCs’, so I want to explain what I mean.

Spoiler: Long context

When I was a kid, I started noticing that most people don’t really think for themselves. Back then it was just something curious, not something that bothered me. But when I got to school, it became frustrating. Every time I interacted with someone, they would respond exactly how I expected them to respond, like they were following a script. It wasn’t just what they said, it was their attitude and personality too. It felt like people were just picking a personality from social media and trying to imitate it as closely as possible. After a while, interactions started to feel predictable and almost pointless. I didn’t isolate myself, I still interacted normally, but internally I felt disconnected, even disgusted sometimes. This got worse with social media trends. Every new thing that appeared, everyone would adapt to it, especially girls, but also guys. A lot of guys were trying to base their personality on fictional characters or online images instead of being themselves. Others were obsessed with getting a girlfriend, which I always found strange, being that desperate for validation. Maybe part of that came from me maturing later than others, since I was always younger than most people in my grade. Because of all this, I started seeing people in a detached way. But I didn’t actually like feeling that way. I didn’t like that sense of disconnection, that feeling of “everybody tells me nothing.” So when GAVA came into my life, things felt different. She wasn’t completely different, she also had influences from the internet, but her interests were genuine, things she had liked since she was a kid, not just something to fit in. People even saw her as “weird” for that. With her, I tried to change how I saw at least one person. But that led to everything I’ve already talked about. And now I’m still here, surrounded by people who don’t think for themselves, who don’t try to be genuine, just following the path they’re supposed to follow. Even in university, where you’d expect more independent thinking, I mostly find people trying to act intellectually superior in a very superficial way. That’s the part that frustrates me the most.

Spoiler: Short version

I've always felt that most people don't think for themselves and just follow patterns, which made interactions predictable and empty. I didn't like feeling that way, so I tried to change it with one person, GAVA. That's why she's "important" to me, not because of love, but because it was a failed attempt to stop feeling disconnected. Right now, I'm in an environment where that same pattern is repeated everywhere, which frustrates me a bit.

Niggas, I'm writing this stuff because I have nothing else to do, I'm on vacation and I'm just waiting for Friday. I could go out now but it's too hot outside.

well yeah i feel like were forced to learn to interact like "normal" humans which stops us from truly expressing idk tho

 

[Savant]

I know it might sound weird/corny when I say I see people as ‘fools’ or ‘NPCs’, so I want to explain what I mean.

Spoiler: Long context

When I was a kid, I started noticing that most people don’t really think for themselves. Back then it was just something curious, not something that bothered me. But when I got to school, it became frustrating. Every time I interacted with someone, they would respond exactly how I expected them to respond, like they were following a script. It wasn’t just what they said, it was their attitude and personality too. It felt like people were just picking a personality from social media and trying to imitate it as closely as possible. After a while, interactions started to feel predictable and almost pointless. I didn’t isolate myself, I still interacted normally, but internally I felt disconnected, even disgusted sometimes. This got worse with social media trends. Every new thing that appeared, everyone would adapt to it, especially girls, but also guys. A lot of guys were trying to base their personality on fictional characters or online images instead of being themselves. Others were obsessed with getting a girlfriend, which I always found strange, being that desperate for validation. Maybe part of that came from me maturing later than others, since I was always younger than most people in my grade. Because of all this, I started seeing people in a detached way. But I didn’t actually like feeling that way. I didn’t like that sense of disconnection, that feeling of “everybody tells me nothing.” So when GAVA came into my life, things felt different. She wasn’t completely different, she also had influences from the internet, but her interests were genuine, things she had liked since she was a kid, not just something to fit in. People even saw her as “weird” for that. With her, I tried to change how I saw at least one person. But that led to everything I’ve already talked about. And now I’m still here, surrounded by people who don’t think for themselves, who don’t try to be genuine, just following the path they’re supposed to follow. Even in university, where you’d expect more independent thinking, I mostly find people trying to act intellectually superior in a very superficial way. That’s the part that frustrates me the most.

Spoiler: Short version

I've always felt that most people don't think for themselves and just follow patterns, which made interactions predictable and empty. I didn't like feeling that way, so I tried to change it with one person, GAVA. That's why she's "important" to me, not because of love, but because it was a failed attempt to stop feeling disconnected. Right now, I'm in an environment where that same pattern is repeated everywhere, which frustrates me a bit.

Niggas, I'm writing this stuff because I have nothing else to do, I'm on vacation and I'm just waiting for Friday. I could go out now but it's too hot outside.

dnr but stop trying to be poetic

 

[Parsival]

dnr but stop trying to be poetic

I never tried to be that, nigga. Maybe you mean the fact that I'm journaling, but that's what I try to bring to this forum, not be a poet.

 

[bob08674]

I know it might sound weird/corny when I say I see people as ‘fools’ or ‘NPCs’, so I want to explain what I mean.

Spoiler: Long context

When I was a kid, I started noticing that most people don’t really think for themselves. Back then it was just something curious, not something that bothered me. But when I got to school, it became frustrating. Every time I interacted with someone, they would respond exactly how I expected them to respond, like they were following a script. It wasn’t just what they said, it was their attitude and personality too. It felt like people were just picking a personality from social media and trying to imitate it as closely as possible. After a while, interactions started to feel predictable and almost pointless. I didn’t isolate myself, I still interacted normally, but internally I felt disconnected, even disgusted sometimes. This got worse with social media trends. Every new thing that appeared, everyone would adapt to it, especially girls, but also guys. A lot of guys were trying to base their personality on fictional characters or online images instead of being themselves. Others were obsessed with getting a girlfriend, which I always found strange, being that desperate for validation. Maybe part of that came from me maturing later than others, since I was always younger than most people in my grade. Because of all this, I started seeing people in a detached way. But I didn’t actually like feeling that way. I didn’t like that sense of disconnection, that feeling of “everybody tells me nothing.” So when GAVA came into my life, things felt different. She wasn’t completely different, she also had influences from the internet, but her interests were genuine, things she had liked since she was a kid, not just something to fit in. People even saw her as “weird” for that. With her, I tried to change how I saw at least one person. But that led to everything I’ve already talked about. And now I’m still here, surrounded by people who don’t think for themselves, who don’t try to be genuine, just following the path they’re supposed to follow. Even in university, where you’d expect more independent thinking, I mostly find people trying to act intellectually superior in a very superficial way. That’s the part that frustrates me the most.

Spoiler: Short version

I've always felt that most people don't think for themselves and just follow patterns, which made interactions predictable and empty. I didn't like feeling that way, so I tried to change it with one person, GAVA. That's why she's "important" to me, not because of love, but because it was a failed attempt to stop feeling disconnected. Right now, I'm in an environment where that same pattern is repeated everywhere, which frustrates me a bit.

Niggas, I'm writing this stuff because I have nothing else to do, I'm on vacation and I'm just waiting for Friday. I could go out now but it's too hot outside.

we nd niggz predict every slaves move

 

[Parsival]

we nd niggz predict every slaves move

nigga, didn't you leave the forum?

 

[bob08674]

nigga, didn't you leave the forum?

came back cuz i got banned on a game that kept me away from here

 

[Razi]

nigga, didn't you leave the forum?

Life been bad this is the only place he escape from the brutal reality

 

[bob08674]

Life been bad this is the only place he escape from the brutal reality

exact reason bro