in 6th grade (2021) I asked this Asian girl out ( essentially we were looksmatched.) we talked a lot and were basically friends, I thought this was signaling we could be in a relationship because we were this close .I asked her after 2 years of talking if you wanna be close like that and asked her out on a date and hang out at the park after school, she rejected and LAUGHED at me making fun of me because I “looked like her brother.” And I was ethnic and puny essentially and I had Asian features like her. As a reminder I went to a small catholic school back then and there was 40 kids in total. There were gcs with 37 kids and 3 people including me were getting kicked away. Every time they called me or tried to talk to me from then on they made fun of me, even the ugly short people who were uglier . I noticed this, and I instantly asked my father about why, he said that looks so matter, but not a lot. Which led me to 4chan which led deeper into lookism.net (what was left) looksmaxxing.com and jaw hacks and some other mfs. Btw the people in my school added me into gcs and trolled me into joining back into their group only to get kicked out and mentally laughed at. In 7th grade, the girl who I asked out and still ridiculed me went out with a white guy in my school who was basically me with white features, approximately same height and haircut, it truly angered me. Before this I was interested in the bass guitar, piano, and chess. Now all the progress and effort I’ve done within these hobbies are destroyed forever because of constant LDARING on researching and reading shitposts on .org and .is. Please don’t be like me and keep on doing what you love instead of scrolling on forums.
