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identity as a filter
"until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate" — Jung
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Everything you’ve ever experienced left something behind, not a memory necessarily, not something you could sit down and explain to someone, something like a stain, a residue. What registers as threatening, what feels like it belongs to you versus what you’re reaching for, whatever it may be, your brain does this without consulting you in a conventional conscious-sense. It compiles subconscious thought, clarifies understandings at insane pace, adjusts ideas you’ve never even fleshed out, and the model it builds isn’t stored anywhere you can go look at it, it just becomes what you are when you stop performing what you are, which is literally just most of the time.
That model is what we’re calling the filter in this instance, and it’s what I understand as the filter generally speaking. It’s running right now, perpetually, like as you’re reading this, before you’ve decided whether or not you think the idea has any merit, it’s almost like a facet of the conventional understanding of the “subconscious.”
The thing that makes it hard to talk about clearly is that you can’t really get outside of it, by the time you’re aware of a thought, a reaction, the specific texture of what something means to you, the filter has already run its course, what arrives to your consciousness isn’t the raw input, it’s the interpretation of the input, and you’ve got to imagine how much that input gets warped passing through you and coming out again, as your own thought, every interaction and feedback loop and ambient signal you think you’ve experienced, everything you think you remember as raw and organic, it’s all passed through the layer of your understanding, the complexities of which I won’t even pretend to understand. Two people in the same room, same conversation, will extract completely different meaning from it, not because one is sharper but because they’re literally experiencing an entirely different event, it’s almost as if they had eyes built from different understandings of what mattered and what didn’t, there’s aspects of an experience that are just background noise to them, the same thing you might find entirely important.
The filter decides what’s worth processing before you even get a chance to notice it, that’s why it’s can be so astounding that someone can misremember an event, or not remember something that you think is integral to a memory, yet completely reasonable to them, they literally weren’t in the same place as you.
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And it compounds, the filter shapes the interpretation of an experience, that interpretation becomes part of the filter, which shapes the following interpretation, which becomes a part of the filter, and you never really get the opportunity to step outside of it because it’s the medium you think within, it’s not something you have, it’s literally your core understanding of who you are, it’s your identity in the most vague & pseudointellectual way possible. This is what you’re feeling when you walk into a room and immediately know something about a person before they’ve said anything. Their filter has been running long enough that its outputs are structurally indistinguishable from who they are, there’s nothing underneath that’s separate from it anymore, they’re not performing it.
How you move through a room, who you hold eye contact with, when you hold your ground and when you don’t, these aren’t decisions you’re making consciously in real time, they’re outputs running automatically off whatever the accumulated weight of social feedback has compressed into your baseline, and someone who has been consistently received as capable eventually stops checking whether they’re capable in any given room because the filter processed enough confirming signal that it routes around the question before it fully forms. You’re watching the result of something constructed long before the moment you’re observing it.
So when the output looks pathological the clinical move is to work at the level of the output, here’s the behavior, here’s what triggers it, here’s an intervention at the surface, and the people doing this aren’t wrong exactly, it’s just that the filter isn’t legible from the outside and it’s barely legible from the inside, so you end up treating what the structure keeps producing without touching the structure. The structure keeps running.
The naming is its own problem though. The moment a diagnosis reaches you it enters the filter as a new input, something you were doing without a framework for it now has a name and a category and implications that come pre-attached, and that’s not a neutral event, sometimes naming dissolves the pattern because the pattern was running on the energy of being unexamined and examination drains it, but sometimes it gives the pattern a shape it can organize itself around that it didn’t have before, and now you’re someone who has this thing, the thing becomes load-bearing in how you understand yourself, and the loop deepens. Algorithms do the same thing honestly, they find the frequency you’re already running on and turn the gain up because engagement is engagement regardless of what it’s doing to you, it’s almost indifferent to whether the loop it’s reinforcing is doing you any good, the filter didn’t have that attractor before, now it does, and it’ll keep feeding it.
The loop is real, whatever forms inside it is real, and I don’t think that’s something worth qualifying, but the loop has a maintenance mechanism, and at some point for some people the pattern becomes visible to itself, and that’s something like a fork, you can incorporate the visibility into the loop, now I’m someone who has this thing, now the name is part of how I move through the world, or you can use it as an entry point to something else, not a decision to feel differently, you can’t really just decide that, it’s closer to the idea that the filter does update, it updates off real inputs accumulated over time until the weight of them shifts something that genuinely cannot be argued with anymore, and that process doesn’t ask you to believe anything in advance of the evidence, you’re not convincing yourself of something, you’re constructing the foundation and letting the filter do what it already does, which is compound, slowly, without asking you. Once you have enough of that built it’s almost like the question stops making sense.
Who’s going to tell you it isn’t you?
The understanding is just the entry point, that’s all it really is, and once the mechanism starts feeling legible, something changes about what it takes to stay fully inside it, most of what gets built around treating the outputs just isn’t looking at that part.
"until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate" — Jung
⊱─────────────────────────────────────⊰
Everything you’ve ever experienced left something behind, not a memory necessarily, not something you could sit down and explain to someone, something like a stain, a residue. What registers as threatening, what feels like it belongs to you versus what you’re reaching for, whatever it may be, your brain does this without consulting you in a conventional conscious-sense. It compiles subconscious thought, clarifies understandings at insane pace, adjusts ideas you’ve never even fleshed out, and the model it builds isn’t stored anywhere you can go look at it, it just becomes what you are when you stop performing what you are, which is literally just most of the time.
That model is what we’re calling the filter in this instance, and it’s what I understand as the filter generally speaking. It’s running right now, perpetually, like as you’re reading this, before you’ve decided whether or not you think the idea has any merit, it’s almost like a facet of the conventional understanding of the “subconscious.”
The thing that makes it hard to talk about clearly is that you can’t really get outside of it, by the time you’re aware of a thought, a reaction, the specific texture of what something means to you, the filter has already run its course, what arrives to your consciousness isn’t the raw input, it’s the interpretation of the input, and you’ve got to imagine how much that input gets warped passing through you and coming out again, as your own thought, every interaction and feedback loop and ambient signal you think you’ve experienced, everything you think you remember as raw and organic, it’s all passed through the layer of your understanding, the complexities of which I won’t even pretend to understand. Two people in the same room, same conversation, will extract completely different meaning from it, not because one is sharper but because they’re literally experiencing an entirely different event, it’s almost as if they had eyes built from different understandings of what mattered and what didn’t, there’s aspects of an experience that are just background noise to them, the same thing you might find entirely important.
The filter decides what’s worth processing before you even get a chance to notice it, that’s why it’s can be so astounding that someone can misremember an event, or not remember something that you think is integral to a memory, yet completely reasonable to them, they literally weren’t in the same place as you.
⊱─────────────────────────────────────⊰
And it compounds, the filter shapes the interpretation of an experience, that interpretation becomes part of the filter, which shapes the following interpretation, which becomes a part of the filter, and you never really get the opportunity to step outside of it because it’s the medium you think within, it’s not something you have, it’s literally your core understanding of who you are, it’s your identity in the most vague & pseudointellectual way possible. This is what you’re feeling when you walk into a room and immediately know something about a person before they’ve said anything. Their filter has been running long enough that its outputs are structurally indistinguishable from who they are, there’s nothing underneath that’s separate from it anymore, they’re not performing it.
How you move through a room, who you hold eye contact with, when you hold your ground and when you don’t, these aren’t decisions you’re making consciously in real time, they’re outputs running automatically off whatever the accumulated weight of social feedback has compressed into your baseline, and someone who has been consistently received as capable eventually stops checking whether they’re capable in any given room because the filter processed enough confirming signal that it routes around the question before it fully forms. You’re watching the result of something constructed long before the moment you’re observing it.
So when the output looks pathological the clinical move is to work at the level of the output, here’s the behavior, here’s what triggers it, here’s an intervention at the surface, and the people doing this aren’t wrong exactly, it’s just that the filter isn’t legible from the outside and it’s barely legible from the inside, so you end up treating what the structure keeps producing without touching the structure. The structure keeps running.
The naming is its own problem though. The moment a diagnosis reaches you it enters the filter as a new input, something you were doing without a framework for it now has a name and a category and implications that come pre-attached, and that’s not a neutral event, sometimes naming dissolves the pattern because the pattern was running on the energy of being unexamined and examination drains it, but sometimes it gives the pattern a shape it can organize itself around that it didn’t have before, and now you’re someone who has this thing, the thing becomes load-bearing in how you understand yourself, and the loop deepens. Algorithms do the same thing honestly, they find the frequency you’re already running on and turn the gain up because engagement is engagement regardless of what it’s doing to you, it’s almost indifferent to whether the loop it’s reinforcing is doing you any good, the filter didn’t have that attractor before, now it does, and it’ll keep feeding it.
The loop is real, whatever forms inside it is real, and I don’t think that’s something worth qualifying, but the loop has a maintenance mechanism, and at some point for some people the pattern becomes visible to itself, and that’s something like a fork, you can incorporate the visibility into the loop, now I’m someone who has this thing, now the name is part of how I move through the world, or you can use it as an entry point to something else, not a decision to feel differently, you can’t really just decide that, it’s closer to the idea that the filter does update, it updates off real inputs accumulated over time until the weight of them shifts something that genuinely cannot be argued with anymore, and that process doesn’t ask you to believe anything in advance of the evidence, you’re not convincing yourself of something, you’re constructing the foundation and letting the filter do what it already does, which is compound, slowly, without asking you. Once you have enough of that built it’s almost like the question stops making sense.
Who’s going to tell you it isn’t you?
The understanding is just the entry point, that’s all it really is, and once the mechanism starts feeling legible, something changes about what it takes to stay fully inside it, most of what gets built around treating the outputs just isn’t looking at that part.
