Parsival
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I hate being neurodivergent. I could have done everything I did, but it didn’t change the outcome. I pushed people away again, and it wasn’t on purpose. The last hope I had to cope and live a normal life as a neurodivergent person is gone, and with it, my desire to interact with new people.
I’m genuinely broken right now. I’m not crying, but I know I will later. I think I look pathetic posting this, but I’m completely alone—and I’m not exaggerating.
I genuinely thought that if I improved everything external, it would cover how bad I feel inside. But it didn’t work.
I really tried to be an image of hope for neurodivergent people, but I ended up in the same misery.
I remember when the situation with GAVA affected me, and I remember thinking, “I need to improve so this never happens again.” And I did improve, yes—but not in what actually mattered. Now I’m here, disappointed that everything I did wasn’t worth it. But at least now I know the truth, and at a young age.
I pushed away the people who tried to show me love, and now I don’t know what to think. Now I feel like my destiny is to push everyone away, and I’m afraid that it will happen. I don’t like most people, but that doesn’t mean I wouldn’t want to be with a few.
I’ve never felt understood. It’s something I didn’t want to accept because it hurt too much, but I have to stop lying to myself. No one will understand me—or at least no one will stay long enough to. Damn, I really thought that if I became someone extraordinary, I could escape that fate.
I’m not going to do anything against myself on purpose, because I know I have a bright future. But at the same time, I know I’ll be the one who causes it.
If you’ve been reading my stories, you’d think my life looked fine—but my fate still caught up to me. I thought it wouldn’t, because I spent so many years trying to prevent it. But it did. If you think you’re in a situation where your neurodivergence won’t affect you, look at my experiences and see how it reached me anyway.
I played the best cards I had, and I still lost. I wish you all the best. Thanks for reading.
Sorry if you read this. As a conclusion, it’s over for neurodivergent people. Good night.
I’m genuinely broken right now. I’m not crying, but I know I will later. I think I look pathetic posting this, but I’m completely alone—and I’m not exaggerating.
I genuinely thought that if I improved everything external, it would cover how bad I feel inside. But it didn’t work.
I really tried to be an image of hope for neurodivergent people, but I ended up in the same misery.
I remember when the situation with GAVA affected me, and I remember thinking, “I need to improve so this never happens again.” And I did improve, yes—but not in what actually mattered. Now I’m here, disappointed that everything I did wasn’t worth it. But at least now I know the truth, and at a young age.
I pushed away the people who tried to show me love, and now I don’t know what to think. Now I feel like my destiny is to push everyone away, and I’m afraid that it will happen. I don’t like most people, but that doesn’t mean I wouldn’t want to be with a few.
I’ve never felt understood. It’s something I didn’t want to accept because it hurt too much, but I have to stop lying to myself. No one will understand me—or at least no one will stay long enough to. Damn, I really thought that if I became someone extraordinary, I could escape that fate.
I’m not going to do anything against myself on purpose, because I know I have a bright future. But at the same time, I know I’ll be the one who causes it.
If you’ve been reading my stories, you’d think my life looked fine—but my fate still caught up to me. I thought it wouldn’t, because I spent so many years trying to prevent it. But it did. If you think you’re in a situation where your neurodivergence won’t affect you, look at my experiences and see how it reached me anyway.
I played the best cards I had, and I still lost. I wish you all the best. Thanks for reading.
Sorry if you read this. As a conclusion, it’s over for neurodivergent people. Good night.
