A means to an end? (14 Viewers)

[Brian]

A strange wave of emotions full of nostalgia, anger and misery feelings hit me like a truck hitting a child brother.

My brother. Tears are escaping my eyes right now, brother.

You know what? When I met you I got motivated to research much more, brother.

You know when you was gonna send me the money to buy my stuff, i just knew you're someone totally different.

I've always felt happy with you, even tho we didn't talk much as you what was happening in my and your life, but I still felt you beside me, and I think I might forever.

Just like the quote of my language saying (pashto) "malgarai Che malgarai we, bya de Ka ba stang ke ham nawe, ta ye ehsas kawe."

If a friend is an actual friend, you'd still feel him. And I did. Idk how to explain how sad I was before this and how worse I got after reading this my man, it's so fucking sad and ik how it feels since we have/had similar lives.

Same shit happens to me everyday, but you and suicide? Brother ISTG I got goosebumps and I wanna scream cuz I can't hold this much pain and struggles, I relate to you which makes it even more sad and you were my BEST FRIEND, my brother. Idk man I'm losing my shit as well, I hope you didn't my brother.

Brother idk how to express my emotions into words brother I hate all this brother you're so much like me

If anyone thinks this is cringe, I don't give a singular fuck man. Rip my brother I love you I wish we could hang out at least 1 time I wish I could scream and cry as hard as I could since I'm losing my shit as well.

Rip

 

[Brian]

This world is so cruel my brother, you were so much of a great man my brother you're a true man.

 

[User123]

Spoiler: thread song

View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7fFGAM3mJKQ&list=RD7fFGAM3mJKQ&index=1

Hello fellow looksmaxxers, some of you know me, most don't.
This is my manifesto, maybe my last message to all of you.

This does not mean i intent to hurt someone/people or women as i have thought long and hard about how all those scenarios would play out and decided against it.
If i do get the balls to kill myself, I will do it quietly like the loser i am.
This will probally get turned into a meme and joke and so be it.

I've always had friends so im not going to pretend otherwise. Although I had few i cherished them.

My life ever since the age of 9 has just been a living hell. It's so hard.
Despite having friends i've always ended up alone. And the loop hits me harder and harder everytime; amplified even futher when i discovered LM.
Despite having friends i always seemed to ruin everything to the point on me getting left on read, to reply to later. A chore if you will.

I love the friends i've made here but i cant do this anymore

My parents have always made it clear they hated me. I was nothing compared to that of my brother. As much as i tried to cope around it soon i accepted the truth.
I've just been dealt a fucking shit hand and no matter how much i try to ammend it via exogenous hormones, coping, substance abuse.
The loop hit me harder and harder.

And even now i sit here and write this ignorant of the harsh reality.
No one cares.
Not my parents, any "friends" i had, sometimes no matter how hard you have to accept the truth.
You have to accept the fact that if you have to try so hard at a task as easy as making meaningful friendships, its over.

And i know why it is too. I cant even look myself in the mirror anymore. Each day lacks anything intresting, each day nothing happens at all.

My own parents have stated many times im a fuck up. A disgusting pig (when i was more overweight still am like 16% bf but whatever)
An ugly freak, the list goes on you get it.
Every pill there is rapes me, family, money, they all stab me.
This life is fucking hell ive always been neglected since birth. What even was the point of it? To bring me a life full of misery
And it worsens seeing everything i've ever wanted all happen to my brother like he is Gods gift to earth, hes taller, mogs me and has never had any problems with social interactions and relationships like me. I just happen to be the inferior one.
My genetic short-commings have lead to this hell that i cannot escape and its truly over.
I feel sick when i look at myself
Im at rock bottom. I can not handle it anymore. I fucking hate this. I just want this all to be done, to be at peace.


And i know there is nothing for me, no one sad or waiting because im hideous.
No girl, no parents or friends. It's like im nothing; like i dont exist
No one else will keep it real with you, but if you're not atleast MTN and tall its over.
Just accept it. I do not care about your "water". Its over for most of us

Never had a girlfriend or anything close to love.
Im just so tired.
Nothing has ever really gone right for me and maybe that was a sign.
I dont know what my future holds but i hope i can survive this if this is my last message. Thank you everyone for everything.

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Ive been thro this but had no friends
it gets better bro, its super hard right now i get it but it will not matter in the future
im a genetic failure too and ive accepted it that it does NOT matter



This is probally the most brutal thread in .gg history . reality hits pretty hard

 

[NoBONES]

Ive been thro this but had no friends
it gets better bro, its super hard right now i get it but it will not matter in the future
im a genetic failure too and ive accepted it that it does NOT matter



This is probally the most brutal thread in .gg history . reality hits pretty hard

Last seen 20 minutes ago I don’t think he’s done it hopefully

 

[User123]

Last seen 20 minutes ago I don’t think he’s done it hopefully

nobdy rlly does it most of them just larp

 

[User]

did your protocols not work?

I don't see why you would do this unless literally nothing is working

 

[halotestin]

Spoiler: thread song

View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7fFGAM3mJKQ&list=RD7fFGAM3mJKQ&index=1

Hello fellow looksmaxxers, some of you know me, most don't.
This is my manifesto, maybe my last message to all of you.

This does not mean i intent to hurt someone/people or women as i have thought long and hard about how all those scenarios would play out and decided against it.
If i do get the balls to kill myself, I will do it quietly like the loser i am.
This will probally get turned into a meme and joke and so be it.

I've always had friends so im not going to pretend otherwise. Although I had few i cherished them.

My life ever since the age of 9 has just been a living hell. It's so hard.
Despite having friends i've always ended up alone. And the loop hits me harder and harder everytime; amplified even futher when i discovered LM.
Despite having friends i always seemed to ruin everything to the point on me getting left on read, to reply to later. A chore if you will.

I love the friends i've made here but i cant do this anymore

My parents have always made it clear they hated me. I was nothing compared to that of my brother. As much as i tried to cope around it soon i accepted the truth.
I've just been dealt a fucking shit hand and no matter how much i try to ammend it via exogenous hormones, coping, substance abuse.
The loop hit me harder and harder.

And even now i sit here and write this ignorant of the harsh reality.
No one cares.
Not my parents, any "friends" i had, sometimes no matter how hard you have to accept the truth.
You have to accept the fact that if you have to try so hard at a task as easy as making meaningful friendships, its over.

And i know why it is too. I cant even look myself in the mirror anymore. Each day lacks anything intresting, each day nothing happens at all.

My own parents have stated many times im a fuck up. A disgusting pig (when i was more overweight still am like 16% bf but whatever)
An ugly freak, the list goes on you get it.
Every pill there is rapes me, family, money, they all stab me.
This life is fucking hell ive always been neglected since birth. What even was the point of it? To bring me a life full of misery
And it worsens seeing everything i've ever wanted all happen to my brother like he is Gods gift to earth, hes taller, mogs me and has never had any problems with social interactions and relationships like me. I just happen to be the inferior one.
My genetic short-commings have lead to this hell that i cannot escape and its truly over.
I feel sick when i look at myself
Im at rock bottom. I can not handle it anymore. I fucking hate this. I just want this all to be done, to be at peace.


And i know there is nothing for me, no one sad or waiting because im hideous.
No girl, no parents or friends. It's like im nothing; like i dont exist
No one else will keep it real with you, but if you're not atleast MTN and tall its over.
Just accept it. I do not care about your "water". Its over for most of us

Never had a girlfriend or anything close to love.
Im just so tired.
Nothing has ever really gone right for me and maybe that was a sign.
I dont know what my future holds but i hope i can survive this if this is my last message. Thank you everyone for everything.

Spoiler: My favourite users

XvideosDemon Beyondthegrave paracelsus Syna Dexter Biomaxx Monstrum guilty 4pfl atrophicpyra U bob08674 Brian carbon fentasticfob GeneticLotteryLoser halotestin Hauptmann hoodsickle Holy Hyporoxin Includings Mandy MedSlayer nineteen Mtn_hell LifeEnjoyer NoBONES Peace useless_neurodivergent User Razi sneakyalex7 sensitive sapphire Tabbyviel heir Skulloute thuuk the wizard Wizardcel tmpll FoidSlayer fentasticfob goyboy.hero makeaway Please do not PM me as my parents have my account i love you all/SPOILER]

love you bro

 

[fent]

he changed his pfp he’s really gone

I would like to just say: You never had any friends. You were simply at the stage of being sort of "acquaintances" with those people. It was simply a byproduct of your social status. Did you share an obsession with those people? Open up your heart and be totally honest, for a period of time where you may actually learn about yourself? Would you care if they were simply erased from the world? <- (you'd only miss their attention, or the nostalgic feeling associated with the time spent with them). Did you have discussions that altered your way of thinking? Maybe i'm wrong, but your friends likely didn't care about you, except in the moment that you were feeding them attention. And you probably didn't really care about them either. real friends are very rare. I mean that those people you were "friends" with, all held little value as "friends".

I don't wanna try and cope you since I don't know what you look like but in my experience, your personality matters a lot in social life. Making others feel smart, funny, heard, useful, etc is what makes up 90% of getting friends for most people. If you aren't actively doing that, superficial (98% of people) will never like you.

Your family life sounds miserable. Hope you can feel better about your situation with your parents.

What I did personally to stop thinking abysmal thoughts like you are thinking is to simply stop caring about so much. Firstly just hop off technology except maybe to watch tv. Just think about living, eating the tastiest and healthiest meat, drinking the best possible juice, best tasting milk, get in the sun and bathe in it, just basic things that allow you to survive and feel better.

As someone who has very seriously thought about killing myself; you can find passion in life, and it is not worth throwing yours away.

As a recommendation, if you decide on killing yourself watch the show "Sonny Boy" before you do so. This show honestly made my suicidal thoughts go away for a long time.

Hope your life or at least your mood improves.

I’m so fucking sorry bhai. It’s genuinely so cruel how society is and how normies treat those who are obviously left fortunate in life. I have no experienced nowhere near as bad as you but I understand your suffering. It’s moments like this where I try to treat and cherish those around me as much as I can despite looks. I pray I can impact a life for the better to prevent situations like yours. May life be kind to you and all ur dreams flourish in this life. Farewell and I’ll greave ur loss from this forum.

Hello everyone back after my failed attempt i really thought it would work and i had a long think, first and foremost i would like to start by saying thank you for all of your messags. Your collective concern means more then you could imagine. Subsequently, i had a convosation with MedSlayer and i'd like to thank him especially too along with XvideosDemon fentasticfob tmpll and useless_neurodivergent oh and Tabbyviel heir.

Upon my long thought ive come to the conclusion i should atleast try. I havent done any compounds, i havent pinned, i havent taken ANYTHING. The point being i dont know how far i can go.
It's for this reason im going to keep trying, taking my failed attempt as a sign to keep moving forward. You should make your own life worth liviing yourself.
Thanks again for all the support it means alot.

 

[fent]

did your protocols not work?

I don't see why you would do this unless literally nothing is working

Alot happened but alot of my money is gone to buy them, which was another reason for it. I only have AI and FGFR3 inhibs as of right now. Im gonna need to think about what i wanna put my last $600 to

 

[Razi]

Hello everyone back after my failed attempt i really thought it would work and i had a long think, first and foremost i would like to start by saying thank you for all of your messags. Your collective concern means more then you could imagine. Subsequently, i had a convosation with MedSlayer and i'd like to thank him especially too along with XvideosDemon fentasticfob tmpll and useless_neurodivergent oh and Tabbyviel heir.

Upon my long thought ive come to the conclusion i should atleast try. I havent done any compounds, i havent pinned, i havent taken ANYTHING. The point being i dont know how far i can go.
It's for this reason im going to keep trying, taking my failed attempt as a sign to keep moving forward. You should make your own life worth liviing yourself.
Thanks again for all the support it means alot.

Good to have you back

 

[fent]

A strange wave of emotions full of nostalgia, anger and misery feelings hit me like a truck hitting a child brother.

My brother. Tears are escaping my eyes right now, brother.

You know what? When I met you I got motivated to research much more, brother.

You know when you was gonna send me the money to buy my stuff, i just knew you're someone totally different.

I've always felt happy with you, even tho we didn't talk much as you what was happening in my and your life, but I still felt you beside me, and I think I might forever.

Just like the quote of my language saying (pashto) "malgarai Che malgarai we, bya de Ka ba stang ke ham nawe, ta ye ehsas kawe."

If a friend is an actual friend, you'd still feel him. And I did. Idk how to explain how sad I was before this and how worse I got after reading this my man, it's so fucking sad and ik how it feels since we have/had similar lives.

Same shit happens to me everyday, but you and suicide? Brother ISTG I got goosebumps and I wanna scream cuz I can't hold this much pain and struggles, I relate to you which makes it even more sad and you were my BEST FRIEND, my brother. Idk man I'm losing my shit as well, I hope you didn't my brother.

Brother idk how to express my emotions into words brother I hate all this brother you're so much like me

If anyone thinks this is cringe, I don't give a singular fuck man. Rip my brother I love you I wish we could hang out at least 1 time I wish I could scream and cry as hard as I could since I'm losing my shit as well.

Rip

oh yea u got a crypto acc rn? I can send u the money if u do. Thanks alot for the message brah means more then you can imagine. Hope everythings good with you
My discord is banned so im gonna need to make a new one.
Love you man

 

[MedSlayer]

Hello everyone back after my failed attempt i really thought it would work and i had a long think, first and foremost i would like to start by saying thank you for all of your messags. Your collective concern means more then you could imagine. Subsequently, i had a convosation with MedSlayer and i'd like to thank him especially too along with XvideosDemon fentasticfob tmpll and useless_neurodivergent oh and Tabbyviel heir.

Upon my long thought ive come to the conclusion i should atleast try. I havent done any compounds, i havent pinned, i havent taken ANYTHING. The point being i dont know how far i can go.
It's for this reason im going to keep trying, taking my failed attempt as a sign to keep moving forward. You should make your own life worth liviing yourself.
Thanks again for all the support it means alot.

Muhh-NOOOOO

 

[mcds]

Alot happened but alot of my money is gone to buy them, which was another reason for it. I only have AI and FGFR3 inhibs as of right now. Im gonna need to think about what i wanna put my last $600 to

aas

 

[fent]

aas

Height is everything imo, the rest can always be fixed

 

[4pfl]

fent YO NIGGA YOU'RE BACK

 

[fent]

fent YO NIGGA YOU'RE BACK

we need to catch up bruuhh

 

[4pfl]

Height is everything imo, the rest can always be fixed

5'11 at 14 isn't bad anyway

 

[fent]

fent YO NIGGA YOU'RE BACK

i woke up with a bad headache and dry mouth idk what happened

 

[mcds]

5'11 at 14 isn't bad anyway

say wallahi this nigga is roping over 5'11 at 14

 

[4pfl]

say wallahi this nigga is roping over 5'11 at 14

fr lmao i was like 5'6 or 7 then

 

[4pfl]

i woke up with a bad headache and dry mouth idk what happened

did you genuinely attempt

 

[mcds]

fr lmao i was like 5'6 or 7 then

67?!

 

[4pfl]

67?!

67 jokes and we're literally almost half way through 2026

son

 

[MedSlayer]

67 jokes and we're literally almost half way through 2026

son

2026-7

 

[nineteen]

i woke up with a bad headache and dry mouth idk what happened

hope you're doing alright now

 

[fent]

did you genuinely attempt

i took some random sleeping pills i found

 

[nineteen]

i took some random sleeping pills i found

you should join vc with us more often

 

[fent]

you should join vc with us more often

if my discord doesnt keep getting fucking banned

 

[4pfl]

if my discord doesnt keep getting fucking banned

tell me your dc when you make a new one

 

[nineteen]

if my discord doesnt keep getting fucking banned

alr bet

 

[useless_neurodivergent]

you really gotta move

if my discord doesnt keep getting fucking banned

What the fuck do you do to get banned

 

[fent]

tell me your dc when you make a new one

Need to figure out how to ban evade first

 

[fent]

you really gotta move

What the fuck do you do to get banned

ban evasion

 

[useless_neurodivergent]

Need to figure out how to ban evade first

I can let u an account

 

[fent]

I can let u an account

it might get banned js fyi

 

[nineteen]

you really gotta move

What the fuck do you do to get banned

oh the horrors...

 

[useless_neurodivergent]

oh the horrors...

I guess vro

 

[useless_neurodivergent]

Motherfucker y'all in VC when is 4am in Spain
can't y'all join before

 

[useless_neurodivergent]

Yo fent do you play videogames?

 

[4pfl]

Motherfucker y'all in VC when is 4am in Spain
can't y'all join before

and 5 am in greece goddamnit

 

[useless_neurodivergent]

and 5 am in greece goddamnit

Like fr

 

[fent]

Yo fent do you play videogames?

like mc my laptop cant run anything else

 

[useless_neurodivergent]

like mc my laptop cant run anything else

Spend those last 600 on a pc lol

 

[useless_neurodivergent]

like mc my laptop cant run anything else

Bet anything works but Roblox can run

 

[fent]

Bet anything works but Roblox can run

roblox is kinda banned

 

[useless_neurodivergent]

roblox is kinda banned

??
What you mean

 

[fent]

??
What you mean

basically my laptop has it blacklisted and i cant unban it

 

[useless_neurodivergent]

basically my laptop has it blacklisted and i cant unban it

Then MC

 

[fent]

Then MC

bet

 

[useless_neurodivergent]

bet

Send priv message when you wanna play.
Love you bro