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When I was 14 i got a gf. She was really sweet and kind to me. I am autistic and i have tourettes so i was not very used to nice people. After we had our 1yr anneversery i realised how much i really loved her. I got kinda obsessed and i got annoying and called her all the time to tell her i loved her and to ask when she could hang out next. She got annoyed after a while, but since i don't understand any social clues because i am autistic and she didn't tell me, i didn't stop. When about 4 months of this bullshit have past she broke up. I was really mad and depressed. And my family situation was really bad so i got suicidal. I tried taking my own life so many times but i was weak and not a man so i didn't die.
when i turned 16 i realised something had to be done. I started working out and i looked kinda good actually after a while even tho my face nerfs me bad. I started acting like the popular people in my grade. I got nice clothes (stole most of it) a burberry hoodie, baggy fleared jeans and a lot more small shit.
Then we moved to a different city, and i became kinda popular. I got a real good looking girl, she was kinda weird but she gave me more status. After 5 months i saw her kissing one of my friends so i broke up.
I started hating women and .is fed mu thoughts.
Now i'm 19 and im trying to be a better person. I pray every night and i will soon stop posting on forums like this
When I was 14 i got a gf. She was really sweet and kind to me. I am autistic and i have tourettes so i was not very used to nice people. After we had our 1yr anneversery i realised how much i really loved her. I got kinda obsessed and i got annoying and called her all the time to tell her i loved her and to ask when she could hang out next. She got annoyed after a while, but since i don't understand any social clues because i am autistic and she didn't tell me, i didn't stop. When about 4 months of this bullshit have past she broke up. I was really mad and depressed. And my family situation was really bad so i got suicidal. I tried taking my own life so many times but i was weak and not a man so i didn't die.
when i turned 16 i realised something had to be done. I started working out and i looked kinda good actually after a while even tho my face nerfs me bad. I started acting like the popular people in my grade. I got nice clothes (stole most of it) a burberry hoodie, baggy fleared jeans and a lot more small shit.
Then we moved to a different city, and i became kinda popular. I got a real good looking girl, she was kinda weird but she gave me more status. After 5 months i saw her kissing one of my friends so i broke up.
I started hating women and .is fed mu thoughts.
Now i'm 19 and im trying to be a better person. I pray every night and i will soon stop posting on forums like this
