I have been thinking abt that since I was like 6 years old, because that's where the bullying and isolation started for me.
At first I thought "Yeah I NEED to be popular" and try to be chill and be with normies. But my NDism js didn't let me so yeah fuck. New beginnings at the new middleschool. What did my ND ass do? I show people gential diseases like blue waffle or HPV
Then I needed to be there for 4 years ofc I got bullied and still I was split. Because being alone didn't seem as bad.
Then high school came and I was immediately popular like school known for maybe 2 weeks till my ND Mask cra cked and past choices in middle school haunted me, because the high-school and middle school was together. And I mean I enjoyed it a little and it was fun to have some friends. After the mask cracked I js hated everybody became the embodiment of a PSL Incel and hated every foid that wanted to talk to me, because one girl that's very fucking extroverted wanted to be close and shit and then I said imma move away a meter like social distance and that also made me unpopular.
Now these ppl want to include me it seems like and I don't know what to do is being a part of the popular ppl good or bad should I try or should I js shove them all away cause now I am an addict for being alone and mostly do not like them.
That's the final question. Is being popular good or bad(I mean some ppl will think it's an obvious answer but for me it's genuinely isnt)
At first I thought "Yeah I NEED to be popular" and try to be chill and be with normies. But my NDism js didn't let me so yeah fuck. New beginnings at the new middleschool. What did my ND ass do? I show people gential diseases like blue waffle or HPV
Then I needed to be there for 4 years ofc I got bullied and still I was split. Because being alone didn't seem as bad.Then high school came and I was immediately popular like school known for maybe 2 weeks till my ND Mask cra cked and past choices in middle school haunted me, because the high-school and middle school was together. And I mean I enjoyed it a little and it was fun to have some friends. After the mask cracked I js hated everybody became the embodiment of a PSL Incel and hated every foid that wanted to talk to me, because one girl that's very fucking extroverted wanted to be close and shit and then I said imma move away a meter like social distance and that also made me unpopular.
Now these ppl want to include me it seems like and I don't know what to do is being a part of the popular ppl good or bad should I try or should I js shove them all away cause now I am an addict for being alone and mostly do not like them.
That's the final question. Is being popular good or bad
(I mean some ppl will think it's an obvious answer but for me it's genuinely isnt)
If u choose Austria then yes
