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i fucking hate sleep, when i want to sleep i cant, when i dont want to i can.
girlfriend came over for valentines day around 2:30pm, im feeling fully awake up until around 2:15, i fall asleep.
she comes up to my room and finds me sleeping so she just lets me because she knows i struggle with sleeping, i wake up around 2 hours later before falling straight back to sleep. i slept from 14:15 until 24:30, she had gone home halfway through my sleep, i message her saying im sorry and she obviously doesnt reply because shes now asleep
she woke up about 30 minutes ago and messages me back, "ok". and then she starts writing paragraphs about shit like "imagine you came to my house on the day we've both spoke about for a while just for me to be asleep the whole time i was there", i then told her, force me awake; "no thats rude" she says
if i fucking tell you to do something you fucking do it, fuck morals i fucking own you so do as i say
i tell her this and she says "well its too late now" even though i said i'd make it up to her in a few hours however she wants me to and she says "how do i know you wont fall asleep?", because i told i fucking wouldnt, whys that so hard of a concept for you to grasp?
sometimes i wish i could just disappear
girlfriend came over for valentines day around 2:30pm, im feeling fully awake up until around 2:15, i fall asleep.
she comes up to my room and finds me sleeping so she just lets me because she knows i struggle with sleeping, i wake up around 2 hours later before falling straight back to sleep. i slept from 14:15 until 24:30, she had gone home halfway through my sleep, i message her saying im sorry and she obviously doesnt reply because shes now asleep
she woke up about 30 minutes ago and messages me back, "ok". and then she starts writing paragraphs about shit like "imagine you came to my house on the day we've both spoke about for a while just for me to be asleep the whole time i was there", i then told her, force me awake; "no thats rude" she says
if i fucking tell you to do something you fucking do it, fuck morals i fucking own you so do as i say
i tell her this and she says "well its too late now" even though i said i'd make it up to her in a few hours however she wants me to and she says "how do i know you wont fall asleep?", because i told i fucking wouldnt, whys that so hard of a concept for you to grasp?
sometimes i wish i could just disappear

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