Aylan
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THIS IS NOT A THREAD ABOUT MY JOURNEY (just a lil observation i have made)
Am eating dinner rn. Alone ofc in my house, grandpa is already sleeping. Doctors said he will still live but he is gonna completly loose his mind this summer. Tbh my house feels like a cold desert. Even if i clean it, even if i warm it. I CANT create the présence of a family. Am home since 1hour and i want to go outside already. Only thing that is still good is the taste of my grilled chicken. Am waiting for Alex to finish his dinner to text. But he will take long cuz hé has to clean etc etc. My point is that never really changed in my house. Just the perception. When u expérienced great things, u wanna live them forever, but that's impossible rn. And it will turn to a bad feeling of "nothing" cuz u feel like before the great expérience. So its like drug
laugh of doom and despair 
Am eating dinner rn. Alone ofc in my house, grandpa is already sleeping. Doctors said he will still live but he is gonna completly loose his mind this summer. Tbh my house feels like a cold desert. Even if i clean it, even if i warm it. I CANT create the présence of a family. Am home since 1hour and i want to go outside already. Only thing that is still good is the taste of my grilled chicken. Am waiting for Alex to finish his dinner to text. But he will take long cuz hé has to clean etc etc. My point is that never really changed in my house. Just the perception. When u expérienced great things, u wanna live them forever, but that's impossible rn. And it will turn to a bad feeling of "nothing" cuz u feel like before the great expérience. So its like drug

laugh of doom and despair 

