[Sith]

I'm not exaggerating that whenever I have an interaction with a girl at my school, they either are visibly uncomfortable or laugh randomly while looking at my face (because I'm ugly) or this one girl deadass just said "ew" I get so shy to the point that I try to avoid interaction with girls at my school the best I can. These 3 girls were making fun of me right in front of my face, I was at school just sitting down when her friends came over to her desk and also sat down there. I saw them glancing and looked at them and all 3 were staring at me. When they were talking, I kept on hearing "hes so ugly" and other things similar. Whenever I walk into the mirror, I feel nothing but disappointment of not being beautiful. When I go to the mall, theres at least one friend group of girls that walk past me and "coinicidentally" laughs as they walk past me. Its hurts so fucking bad, I can't even be seen as human. I have so much flaws, theres probably no way I can ascend until surgery when I'm 18 which is too long. I don't want to commit suicide; I just want a better life. I don't know why but ever since like a year ago, I've seen this world as very evil. Sorry for my bitching, but I have no other way to express my thoughts due to my friends being untrustworthy.

 

[p21dimo]

it doesn’t get better. And that’s okay g
Biggest part about living a happy life is acceptance

 

[Sith]

it doesn’t get better. And that’s okay g
Biggest part about living a happy life is acceptance

I'm not accepting this shit, thats not how happiness comes, even if I do get happy, I'll just remind myself how ugly I look with my big ass smile.

 

[p21dimo]

I'm not accepting this shit, thats not how happiness comes, even if I do get happy, I'll just remind myself how ugly I look with my big ass smile.

Just rape them

 

[Sith]

Just rape them

tempting.

 

[p21dimo]

I'm not exaggerating that whenever I have an interaction with a girl at my school, they either are visibly uncomfortable or laugh randomly while looking at my face (because I'm ugly) or this one girl deadass just said "ew" I get so shy to the point that I try to avoid interaction with girls at my school the best I can. These 3 girls were making fun of me right in front of my face, I was at school just sitting down when her friends came over to her desk and also sat down there. I saw them glancing and looked at them and all 3 were staring at me. When they were talking, I kept on hearing "hes so ugly" and other things similar. Whenever I walk into the mirror, I feel nothing but disappointment of not being beautiful. When I go to the mall, theres at least one friend group of girls that walk past me and "coinicidentally" laughs as they walk past me. Its hurts so fucking bad, I can't even be seen as human. I have so much flaws, theres probably no way I can ascend until surgery when I'm 18 which is too long. I don't want to commit suicide; I just want a better life. I don't know why but ever since like a year ago, I've seen this world as very evil. Sorry for my bitching, but I have no other way to express my thoughts due to my friends being untrustworthy.

all jokes aside Ik it sucks but being sorry for urself won’t change ur mindset. The best advice i can give is just to get away from all this or save up and hardmax.

 

[p21dimo]

tempting.

 

[Osteotomy]

sammmee brahh #stonecold #depressedt33ncore #incvlcxree #bpruined my life

 

[Sith]

all jokes aside Ik it sucks but being sorry for urself won’t change ur mindset. The best advice i can give is just to get away from all this or save up and hardmax.

can't really get away from this as literally every human being then treats me a different way because of this. I guess I could hardmax, but I don't really see that as an option either.

 

[Sith]

sammmee brahh #stonecold #depressedt33ncore #incvlcxree #bpruined my life

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well, I'm being serious. this shit is bad. you have not gone through being laughed at multiple times a day.

 

[p21dimo]

can't really get away from this as literally every human being then treats me a different way because of this. I guess I could hardmax, but I don't really see that as an option either.

if human beings are the problem then get away from human beings g. Move out and live in the mountains by urself and be one with nature

 

[Osteotomy]

well, I'm being serious. this shit is bad. you have not gone through being laughed at multiple times a day.

u dont know me pal

i totally get it tbh, ive been through the hell of being ugly, being average, and where im at now

at one point even my own parents didnt like me, i was a burden to the teachers too and i would be bullied every single day. i also had no friends, only a couple weird girls and one other that liked me just because i have the last name of a serial killer

but either way i was laughed at and bullied all day everyday, it was like a never ending nightmare. so no, u just dont know me.

 

[Sith]

if human beings are the problem then get away from human beings g. Move out and live in the mountains by urself and be one with nature

well, I guess either way asides from softmaxxing (which is nearly impossible) I won't ever get my way. I think hardmaxxing is the best option but it feels so unrewarding

 

[Sith]

u dont know me pal

i totally get it tbh, ive been through the hell of being ugly, being average, and where im at now

at one point even my own parents didnt like me, i was a burden to the teachers too and i would be bullied every single day. i also had no friends, only a couple weird girls and one other that liked me just because i have the last name of a serial killer

but either way i was laughed at and bullied all day everyday, it was like a never ending nightmare. so no, u just dont know me.

alright, good point. I was just saying I was being fully serious, not trying to just make some thread to seem relatable.

 

[Sith]

u dont know me pal

i totally get it tbh, ive been through the hell of being ugly, being average, and where im at now

at one point even my own parents didnt like me, i was a burden to the teachers too and i would be bullied every single day. i also had no friends, only a couple weird girls and one other that liked me just because i have the last name of a serial killer

but either way i was laughed at and bullied all day everyday, it was like a never ending nightmare. so no, u just dont know me.

wait, I'm sorry did you just say, they liked you because you have the last name of a serial killer???? we cannot be deadass

 

[Mandibular]

I'm not exaggerating that whenever I have an interaction with a girl at my school, they either are visibly uncomfortable or laugh randomly while looking at my face (because I'm ugly) or this one girl deadass just said "ew" I get so shy to the point that I try to avoid interaction with girls at my school the best I can. These 3 girls were making fun of me right in front of my face, I was at school just sitting down when her friends came over to her desk and also sat down there. I saw them glancing and looked at them and all 3 were staring at me. When they were talking, I kept on hearing "hes so ugly" and other things similar. Whenever I walk into the mirror, I feel nothing but disappointment of not being beautiful. When I go to the mall, theres at least one friend group of girls that walk past me and "coinicidentally" laughs as they walk past me. Its hurts so fucking bad, I can't even be seen as human. I have so much flaws, theres probably no way I can ascend until surgery when I'm 18 which is too long. I don't want to commit suicide; I just want a better life. I don't know why but ever since like a year ago, I've seen this world as very evil. Sorry for my bitching, but I have no other way to express my thoughts due to my friends being untrustworthy.

Shi happens to me all the time

 

[Osteotomy]

wait, I'm sorry did you just say, they liked you because you have the last name of a serial killer???? we cannot be deadass

yea she said "do you know richard ramirez" and i was just like nah cuz i didnt know who he was and i went home, looked him up and clicked on a few links on the images cuz it seemed interesting and found .org (it was .me at the time tho)

i was like 12 years old

 

[Sith]

yea she said "do you know richard ramirez" and i was just like nah cuz i didnt know who he was and i went home, looked him up and clicked on a few links on the images cuz it seemed interesting and found .org (it was .me at the time tho)

i was like 12 years old

have a feeling you're obviously lying, however if thats how you found org that would be awesome asf.

 

[Osteotomy]

have a feeling you're obviously lying

how so? its not like she was attractive, she was ugly. the one weird girl was decent looking tho but now i saw her on insta shes unironically like htb now (i dont think she ever liked me lol)

i didnt actually know until a year later tho but it made sense since she would be like super awkward and shit around me but would try to talk to me randomly

however if thats how you found org that would be awesome asf.

yea thats why i started roiding but it wasnt until 2 years later

i remember i would like unironically squint and shit to get "muh hunter eyes"

i have some pictures of like my eye area from then too i had 0 dimo since i was under developed from starving myself until i got into the gym