Serious Fear of apathy/soullessness on meds for bipolar disorder (6 Viewers)

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I have been seriously thinking this over and I can not fully convince myself its a good idea to start taking the mood stabilizers and antipsychotics that have been prescribed to me. I have bipolar disorder and am in constant chaos going from depression to the point of almost roping straight to euphoric feelings of happiness, or even sometimes complete emotionless apathy. The switches are random and I can never predict when I"ll get them or how long each mood will last. I want the pain of this to end but I feel as if taking these drugs will in a way rob me of my character/personality and make me a soulless shell of a human. Anyone have any thoughts/experience on this topic?