[VelocityAnt¹]

I know some of you guys already know that I have shitty surroundings that make my life kinda miserable.

But idk if I should go and "celebrate" Christmas with them cause:
1-Big Social gathering
--->make my fucking head hurts so much and that's why I never stay to long eating at tables and prefer playing games with others ppl my age(autism lite)

2-I'm a little black lamb
--->Adults are only there to belittle me cause I'm different. No I can't be good muh 160iq+ muh slave, no I can't be generic good muh gook cause guess what I'm different +always said Im fat and more while some other chih looking just like me and he don't get shi.
--->They treat me differently, as I remember it was always like this. They always said I was hood and treated me like shit compared to others.

Tldr:It's just shit for me most of the time and it's free rudeness BDSM session ahh if I go there

Most importantly
One of the elders really want me to go there (she's like 85+ I reckon), she seen me today ,still sleepy and in pajamas not participating and celebrating with them on Christmas Eve. And I don't want her last memory of me being in my bed and getting up to say goodbye cause I didn't wanted to be with them(as said before supa cortisol spike). Like if she died, I'll never see her again and she would only see me as a rotting nigga, ts would build so much guilt.
I know it's not really my fault if she died but it's kinda suicidefuel to think about it, her last memory of me is me being deep down.

What do you guys think? Should I go or not?

Spoiler: inb4

inb4 "muh why u talking about this kind of things here".
I don't want no normie ahh response "muh it's your family", in there eyes i'm shit so why bother.

Spoiler: Church of PREET

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[Determinism]

I think you should just make an appearance, don't stay for too long than you should though.

Even if you're only there for like 30 minutes to eat and then leave, just enjoy it, anyone makes any rude comments; make one back but chuckle at the same time so it doesn't come off as backchat or rudeness.

 

[VelocityAnt¹]

I think you should just make an appearance, don't stay for too long than you should though.

Even if you're only there for like 30 minutes to eat and then leave, just enjoy it, anyone makes any rude comments; make one back but chuckle at the same time so it doesn't come off as backchat or rudeness.

Bro I can't, I'll go to a cousin's house for Christmas that's why I'm perplexed about it. They will have everyone

 

[Determinism]

Bro I can't, I'll go to a cousin's house for Christmas that's why I'm perplexed about it. They will have everyone

Are you staying the night there or something? Can't you just pop in and say "hello", eat food and then wish them a merry christmas and leave? Don't need to be there for an hour yk

 

[kanyewestlover66]

just smoke a little weed before you go, chill out and eeat, Risky method though if you overdo it you could ostrasize yourself from all family gatherings, 1-3 medium pen rips ususally puts me in a good state to deal with obnoxious family gatherings

 

[VelocityAnt¹]

Are you staying the night there or something? Can't you just pop in and say "hello", eat food and then wish them a merry christmas and leave? Don't need to be there for an hour yk

From 11AM to idk how long I'll be there, I don't really decide when I can come back, If got a car or smth it would have been easier. But unfortunatly that's not the case

 

[VelocityAnt¹]

just smoke a little weed before you go, chill out and eeat, Risky method though if you overdo it you could ostrasize yourself from all family gatherings, 1-3 medium pen rips ususally puts me in a good state to deal with obnoxious family gatherings

It's Christmas bro, ain't no plug down my block, ion want no drugs and have a gateway for addictions+ I could endure it (cause it was always like this) but in a way, why would I want to go there to see 3 chill cousins and food and get a free guilt/insult sesh. Ion like most of them, they get on me cause they coping with their shitty lives. Tryna make themselves superior morally for some time to cope.

 

[kanyewestlover66]

It's Christmas bro, ain't no plug down my block, ion want no drugs and have a gateway for addictions+ I could endure it (cause it was always like this) but in a way, why would I want to go there to see 3 chill cousins and food and get a free guilt/insult sesh. Ion like most of them, they get on me cause they coping with their shitty lives. Tryna make themselves superior morally for some time to cope.

weed is based bro, i always have a pen on me for times like this, just dont get addicted bhai its not that hard

 

[VelocityAnt¹]

weed is based bro, i always have a pen on me for times like this, just dont get addicted bhai its not that hard

Fuark, could go there raw from substances but only for the elder. Idk what to do

 

[kanyewestlover66]

Fuark, could go there raw from substances but only for the elder. Idk what to do

are you chill with any of your cousins? I got 1 cousin i fw who comes in clutch at all these events, we always play clash royale 2v2s and it keeps me entertained for almost the entire thing

 

[VelocityAnt¹]

are you chill with any of your cousins? I got 1 cousin i fw who comes in clutch at all these events, we always play clash royale 2v2s and it keeps me entertained for almost the entire thing

Some yeah, most of the time I eat for 5 mins then go play with one of my cousin immediatly, but we a tiny bit distant from previous year, idk why maybe he started being like the adults

 

[kanyewestlover66]

Some yeah, most of the time I eat for 5 mins then go play with one of my cousin immediatly, but we a tiny bit distant from previous year, idk why maybe he started being like the adults

just like find a political issue ur passionate about and debate with the elders, if you can find a polarizing topic that half the table agrees with and you are articulate its a great way to grind rep and be respected by the family

 

[VelocityAnt¹]

just like find a political issue ur passionate about and debate with the elders, if you can find a polarizing topic that half the table agrees with and you are articulate its a great way to grind rep and be respected by the family

Tables are separated, that's great but they like to 1on1 ditch me or publicly do it

 

[Circadex]

will read 2 mins

 

[Z1gler7]

I know some of you guys already know that I have shitty surroundings that make my life kinda miserable.

But idk if I should go and "celebrate" Christmas with them cause:
1-Big Social gathering
--->make my fucking head hurts so much and that's why I never stay to long eating at tables and prefer playing games with others ppl my age(autism lite)

2-I'm a little black lamb
--->Adults are only there to belittle me cause I'm different. No I can't be good muh 160iq+ muh slave, no I can't be generic good muh gook cause guess what I'm different +always said Im fat and more while some other chih looking just like me and he don't get shi.
--->They treat me differently, as I remember it was always like this. They always said I was hood and treated me like shit compared to others.

Tldr:It's just shit for me most of the time and it's free rudeness BDSM session ahh if I go there

Most importantly
One of the elders really want me to go there (she's like 85+ I reckon), she seen me today ,still sleepy and in pajamas not participating and celebrating with them on Christmas Eve. And I don't want her last memory of me being in my bed and getting up to say goodbye cause I didn't wanted to be with them(as said before supa cortisol spike). Like if she died, I'll never see her again and she would only see me as a rotting nigga, ts would build so much guilt.
I know it's not really my fault if she died but it's kinda suicidefuel to think about it, her last memory of me is me being deep down.

What do you guys think? Should I go or not?

Spoiler: inb4

inb4 "muh why u talking about this kind of things here".
I don't want no normie ahh response "muh it's your family", in there eyes i'm shit so why bother.

Spoiler: Church of PREET

Circadex BastiHgH 1ncel chadpreet Determinism Kurdish_slayer sjzso 6zrir6a certified_LTN

go for the igf-1 signaling bhai

 

[VelocityAnt¹]

go for the igf-1 signaling bhai

Maybe ngl last time got Beef Wellington this was fire

 

[Kurdish_slayer]

I know some of you guys already know that I have shitty surroundings that make my life kinda miserable.

But idk if I should go and "celebrate" Christmas with them cause:
1-Big Social gathering
--->make my fucking head hurts so much and that's why I never stay to long eating at tables and prefer playing games with others ppl my age(autism lite)

2-I'm a little black lamb
--->Adults are only there to belittle me cause I'm different. No I can't be good muh 160iq+ muh slave, no I can't be generic good muh gook cause guess what I'm different +always said Im fat and more while some other chih looking just like me and he don't get shi.
--->They treat me differently, as I remember it was always like this. They always said I was hood and treated me like shit compared to others.

Tldr:It's just shit for me most of the time and it's free rudeness BDSM session ahh if I go there

Most importantly
One of the elders really want me to go there (she's like 85+ I reckon), she seen me today ,still sleepy and in pajamas not participating and celebrating with them on Christmas Eve. And I don't want her last memory of me being in my bed and getting up to say goodbye cause I didn't wanted to be with them(as said before supa cortisol spike). Like if she died, I'll never see her again and she would only see me as a rotting nigga, ts would build so much guilt.
I know it's not really my fault if she died but it's kinda suicidefuel to think about it, her last memory of me is me being deep down.

What do you guys think? Should I go or not?

Spoiler: inb4

inb4 "muh why u talking about this kind of things here".
I don't want no normie ahh response "muh it's your family", in there eyes i'm shit so why bother.

Spoiler: Church of PREET

Circadex BastiHgH 1ncel chadpreet Determinism Kurdish_slayer sjzso 6zrir6a certified_LTN

u dont owe anyone a full performance. Big gatherings drain u and thats valid.

Go for 10–15 minutes, say hi, then leave.

That way u protect yourself and avoid future guilt.





If it gets too much, dip. Simple.

 

[Z1gler7]

u dont owe anyone a full performance. Big gatherings drain u and thats valid.

Go for 10–15 minutes, say hi, then leave.

That way u protect yourself and avoid future guilt.





If it gets too much, dip. Simple.

why does this sound like chat gpt lowk

 

[VelocityAnt¹]

u dont owe anyone a full performance. Big gatherings drain u and thats valid.

Go for 10–15 minutes, say hi, then leave.

That way u protect yourself and avoid future guilt.





If it gets too much, dip. Simple.

I'll prolly be avoidant asf

 

[Circadex]

will read 2 mins

Still going to, i actually was reading until i wasw stolen by family.

 

[VelocityAnt¹]

Good news for me, just getting there from 11AM to max 5PM

 

[VelocityAnt¹]

Good news for me, just getting there from 11AM to max 5PM

Thought I was gonna get fucked for the whole day

 

[Uparmanusya]

Do it ngl

 

[1ncel]

I know some of you guys already know that I have shitty surroundings that make my life kinda miserable.

But idk if I should go and "celebrate" Christmas with them cause:
1-Big Social gathering
--->make my fucking head hurts so much and that's why I never stay to long eating at tables and prefer playing games with others ppl my age(autism lite)

2-I'm a little black lamb
--->Adults are only there to belittle me cause I'm different. No I can't be good muh 160iq+ muh slave, no I can't be generic good muh gook cause guess what I'm different +always said Im fat and more while some other chih looking just like me and he don't get shi.
--->They treat me differently, as I remember it was always like this. They always said I was hood and treated me like shit compared to others.

Tldr:It's just shit for me most of the time and it's free rudeness BDSM session ahh if I go there

Most importantly
One of the elders really want me to go there (she's like 85+ I reckon), she seen me today ,still sleepy and in pajamas not participating and celebrating with them on Christmas Eve. And I don't want her last memory of me being in my bed and getting up to say goodbye cause I didn't wanted to be with them(as said before supa cortisol spike). Like if she died, I'll never see her again and she would only see me as a rotting nigga, ts would build so much guilt.
I know it's not really my fault if she died but it's kinda suicidefuel to think about it, her last memory of me is me being deep down.

What do you guys think? Should I go or not?

Spoiler: inb4

inb4 "muh why u talking about this kind of things here".
I don't want no normie ahh response "muh it's your family", in there eyes i'm shit so why bother.

Spoiler: Church of PREET

Circadex BastiHgH 1ncel chadpreet Determinism Kurdish_slayer sjzso 6zrir6a certified_LTN

Js do it in my opinion chill and talk with the elderly person and rather ignore the others
This is a risky option that I wouldn't advise u to take but just stand up for urself and defend urself
U can do that and be subtle about it learn how to be and clap back in a passive manner
But do this method if ur 18+ cause u might piss some ppl off and yeah being 16 u are bound to be their pocket pussy if u do that cause "ur not an adult"

 

[VelocityAnt¹]

Js do it in my opinion chill and talk with the elderly person and rather ignore the others
This is a risky option that I wouldn't advise u to take but just stand up for urself and defend urself
U can do that and be subtle about it learn how to be and clap back in a passive manner
But do this method if ur 18+ cause u might piss some ppl off and yeah being 16 u are bound to be their pocket pussy if u do that cause "ur not an adult"

If I do ts I'll get perma ostracized until they all become old ngl, can't do allat other than wait it out